Clementine x male reader season 1

chapter 18 "it's not your fault"

(Y/n's POV)

It's been a while since you all left the motel inn and Clem lost her eye and your helping Katjaa get the last bullet piece out and see got it out and clean her eye and you bandaged her eye and she says.

Katjaa: She going to be out for a while.

Y/n: How long is a while?

Katjaa: There's no way of knowing s-she might not wake up at all.

Your eyes widen and you sigh and nod that you understand.

Lee comes over and ask.

Lee: How is she?

Y/n: Stable for now we just got the last bullet piece out and Katjaa told me she might be out for a while but there's also a possibility that she won't wake up at all.

You feel tears water your eyes seeing Clem like and you look at her and see she don't have her hat on and you ask Lee.

Y/n: You have her hat Lee?

Lee: Yeah why?

Y/n: Can I give it to her when she wakes up?

Lee: Yeah of course.

He hands it to you.

(You now have Clem's hat to hold on to)

Lee: Make sure not to lose it.

Y/n: Am I that dumb?

Lee: No you are not.

You look around for Sadie but don't see her and ask.

Y/n: Where's Sadie?

Lee: (Sighs) She was left behind at the raid and also she was shot in the eye also.

You feel like your going to cry but you hold back the tears and say.

Y/n: Great now half of my family is gone first my dad when we were at the drug store when he was pulled out of the window.

You voice starts cracking.

Y/n: Now my sister at the raid when Joshua attacked and shot thru the eye and probably dead if I lose anyone else I-I-I-I don't know what I'll do. And if it anyone I love it's going to send a emotional breakdown thru my body and I won't be able to stop it and now my best friend has one eye and there's no changing it. I can't help but feel like it's my fault that everyone who died so far. Dad Mark Larry Sadie and possibly Clem.

You just let the tears fall and you don't bother to wipe them away and you say.

Y/n: And who would be next? Eric Mom Carley Lilly Duck Katjaa Doug Kenny Ben, you Lee or me. I-it's too many people end up dieing because of me. And if they die because of me it's pain I can't take, Lee.

Lee: No one will die because of you you dad died trying to protect us. Mark died trying to protect us. Clem lost her eye trying to protect us. So its  not your fault.

Y/n: Yeah maybe your right.

Lee: C'mon let's go to the others.

Y/n: Yeah I need something to take my mind off from what happened maybe a card game?

Lee: Yeah let's do that.

You smile and go get you deck of cards.

A/n: I almost cried typing this so just throwing that out there.