1983 c.h. (au)

14: would you tell me the truth

Charlie was visiting the cemetery with Liv again but she didn't talk to her. She finally got around to reading her diary that held all the answers according to Phoenix. She sat on a bench under a shady tree because it was quite got and humid that day in San Fran. Her eyes dragged lazily over the words written on the paper that seemed to flow together.

She had read a numerous amount of diary entries but hasn't come across one that had mention of Calum. Up until now. It was the second to last one that was in the book. The warm September air blew Charlie's hair and the pages turned.

January 25th, 2014

I had went to a party last night this time without Charlie. She demanded that she would study because of a big test coming. Unlike me, I couldn't care any less about school. I'm always the one to turn up. But this time was different. Unlike my usual, dress like classy trash to make the other sluts feel bad about themselves to get laid, I wish I hadn't gone to that party.

I probably wouldn't care if I was drunk but clearly that wasn't the case. I did my usual routine of getting laid by fresh meat. His name is Calum Hood. I was absolutely waiting for an opportunity to catch someone like him. He ruled with an iron fist and if anyone didn't know everything in our generation is about sex. Except sex. Sex is about power. And it was amazing. But I wasn't emotionally connected and I regret sleeping with him because he was drunk and won't remember probably and when I woke up he was gone.

I know what you guys are thinking. Don't tell Charlie because she's gonna go apeshit because

A: she's still a virgin and
B: this is Calum Hood.

I should probably go. Later haters.

Love Always,
Olivia x

Charlie touched the words on the paper with such shock. Her best friend had slept with Calum Hood and all this time she didn't know about it. She had always thought that Olivia wouldn't ever keep anything like this from her. Charlie shook her head in disbelief. The wind turned the next page for her and she read on.

February 4th, 2014

Now I seriously regret it. In my 17 years I never thought that I would have made this big of a mistake. I'm such a fuck up. Why did I go to that stupid party? Why did I let my body and my hormones take over me? What am I gonna do now? Calum isn't the type to take care of a child. I know that enough. The only reason why he is the way he is now is because his girlfriend got in a car accident on her way back from the hospital.

She was pregnant with his child and she died not too long ago. I feel so bad what am I gonna tell him? What would Charlie think? How am I gonna tell her that I had a ons with Calum Hood and then apparently got pregnant because of it. This is absolutely terrible. I have to go figure something out. I can't live on like this.

Love Always,
Olivia x

Charlie's eyes swelled with tears as realization hit her. Olivia wasn't depressed to the point of death. She was a happy go lucky person. She's in the grave now because of Calum. With bitterness in her veins she read the last thing that Olivia wrote to her.

Dear Charlie,

This is going to be hard to admit to you and I need you to be open minded okay? Can you do that? I'm sorry that you found me the way that you did but I need to tell you the truth. I wasn't on my period at all the time that I was being a bitch. And I didn't have food poisoning from our favourite sushi place.

Please don't be mad or upset because I'm leaving you and never coming back. But you deserve to know the truth. The truth is that I'm not depressed or sad or that someone put me like this. I'm pregnant with Calum Hood's baby.