Under the Cherry Blossoms (Taejin/Kookjin)

Chapter 10. Sexual Tension

TAEHYUNG'S POV

After that seemingly awkward situation, Jin and I are trying our best to act civilized. Yes, trying our bestest best. We're trying our best to avert our gazes as we prepared the food. But no matter how much we tried, we always end up catching each other from stealing glances and covering it up with fake coughs. The atmosphere is choking with tension.

I seriously can't breathe in this choking tension.

I trailed my eyes to Jin's ethereal face. Damn, he is so beautiful and sexy. those plump lips, smooth skin, perfect nose, long eyelashes. He is a fucking masterpiece. I want to pin him up on the wall.

However, what made him more attractive was not just his pretty face, but the purity of his soul. I suddenly remembered our conversation under the cherry blossoms four years ago.

*Flashback: Jin and Taehyung's conversation under the cherry blossom four years ago*

Taehyung: Remember when I asked you to wait for me outside the coffee shop as I was to get my car. As I drove near the coffee shop, you were not there. I stopped the car and was about to go out of the car but I saw you coming out of the café bringing a bag of pastries. You were walking across the road. My eyes followed you and saw you giving the bag to a homeless person. 

Jin: Oh that. *smiles*

Taehyung: Why did you pity him Jin?

Jin: Because he was homeless and he probably has not eaten anything yet.

Taehyung: What if he was not worth of your sympathy? What if he was homeless because he was too lazy to work?

Jin: What if he worked but still end up homeless? What if he did not have a choice due to circumstances? Not all people are living in fairytales, Tae. Some of us live in tragedies.

Taehyung: Tragedies?

Jin: Yes. When I was younger, my mom and I came here to Seoul to escape my abusive father and to seek a better fortune. Unfortunately, no luck for us. We were struggling to survive. My mom died of illness and left me to fend for myself. I was still in high school, Tae but I worked hard. I worked myself through high school and college. Did I blame my father for what happened? No. As much as I hated him, I can't. My father probably became like that because of his past experiences. Did he choose to become my father? No. Did I choose him to be my father? No. Will I forgive him someday if he asked forgiveness? Yes. Why? Because we were victims of circumstances, Tae. We did not have a choice because that was life's way of teaching us a lesson. Only few people have perfect or close to perfection lives. So, you should cherish it if you have one. Do you think I'm stupid for believing that?

Taehyung: No, you're not stupid but amazing. You're right. Who are we to judge? Who am I to judge you when I was not in your shoes?

*End of flashback*

The night with Jin showed me a different perspective about love. Love is such a mystery. Some people fall in love at first sight. Others take time to fall in love. Some people fall for aesthetics while others fall for inner souls. Some people fall harder when they are together. Others when they are apart. As for me, I was attracted with Jin's beauty but I fell for his soul. Absence and longing made me fall harder for him. As I missed him every single day, the more I realize that I love him. It may sound illogical to love someone you just met once, but there are some things in life that we can't fully comprehend. One of that is my passionate feelings towards Jin.

I miss him. I miss him very much.

Ouch! I suddenly yelled. I was so caught up with my thoughts that I accidentally cut my finger while preparing the vegetables for the Japchae.

Jin hurriedly ran towards me and drag me to the sink. He washed my wounded finger. His hands were so soft as he brushed my skin. I then sat down at the kitchen counter's chair as he went away to get the first aid kit.

As he came back, he gently held my hand, applied ointment on my wounded finger and bandaged it.

"PPO PPO" [Note: ppo ppo means kiss in Korean]

Fuck! What the hell did I say?

Jin froze.

I'm sweating.

It's getting hot.

After a moment of awkward silence, Jin let go of my hand. "I'll continue preparing the food. For the moment, you may stay in the dining area or living room. I'll call you when everything is ready."

"Can I stay to watch you cook?" I asked. I gulped at my request.

"Ok". Jin whispered while still averting his gaze.

Watching Jin cook was like watching masterchef. He sure was very efficient. He was already done with Bulgogi. Now, he's preparing Japchae. I thought I could no longer fall harder, but seeing Jin in a very domestic setting made my heart go wild. I'm falling harder... harder...

I was in a dreamy state. I was imagining myself wrapping my arms around his thin waist and placing my head on his shoulder as he was preparing the food. I will then nuzzle my nose into his neck as I take in his sweet scent. I will give him small feathery kisses until I reach his ear which I will sensually nibble with so much desire.

Jin suddenly stopped. I could feel him catching his breath. His heartbeat was irregular. Then, I realized something.

Silence. Heavy breathing.

Shit! Why am I back hugging him? Why am I biting his ear? How did I end up here? It was just an imagination, right? How? Wait... what happened? Here comes another episode of my body betraying me.

After realizing what happened, he panicked and tried to wiggle out from my embrace. I hugged him tighter. What the fuck am I doing? He froze and tensed. My pants tighten as "it" pressed on his soft globes. Wait, what? Did I just?

I used all my will to remove my arms from his waist. I jumped away. I need to stop this madness. Jin might throw me out of the house.

"Jin... I am... I am.. so.. I am.. sor.. I am sorry." I stuttered. I don't exactly know how to explain myself.

Jin sighed and spoke softly. "Ummmm... It's okay, Tae.. ummm... I'm almost through. Can I ask you to set the table?" He was still avoiding my gaze.

He's not mad? Why is he not mad at me?

Before I do something stupid again, I shouted a quick "Yes" and started doing what he was asking me to do.

This is going to be a long night.

Will I be able to control myself?

I'm losing my mind.

How can I escape this tension? This Sexual tension....

I think I can't.

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A/N:

Ooopsss... Tae in panic mode...