Under the Cherry Blossoms (Taejin/Kookjin)

Chapter 11. Slow Torture

TAEHYUNG'S POV

The table is set: two ceramic plates across each other, two sets of chopsticks besides each ceramic plate and two glasses of water on the other side of the plate.

And of course, me, glued on the seat of the dining area. My legs and hands are shaking. I am clenching my fists and biting my lips as I suffer on the inside, controlling my urge to stand up. My breathing is heavy as I stare at the beauty just across me. Yes, the dining table is just across and a few steps away from the kitchen counter. I can see Jin perfectly as he did some finishing touches with the food.

His broad shoulders... I can't believe I actually placed my head there a while ago. Wait, shit! I also traced the outline of his clothed shoulder with my tongue.

His neck... Did I really trail butterfly kisses on that soft skin?

His ear... I thought it was just an imagination, but I nibbled his ear a few moments ago.

I'm trembling. I'm sweating. My face feels warm... embarrassment? Yes, kind of. But I think, more like turned on. I'm so fucking turned on by just staring at him!

Why am I like this? Maybe because I have missed him so much.

Four years... four fucking years... There was never a day that I did not think about him. Do you know the feeling of badly wanting someone but he was not physically there? And I had to endure all the longing and all the "what ifs" every single day.

And a few steps from me...at this moment... the man I have been waiting for is here. I want him so bad, but I don't want to scare him away. He might think I'm a pervert and throw me out of his apartment.

I internally screamed... This is TORTURE!

I closed my eyes, gripped my hair tightly and stabilized my breathing. I can't let my body take over me. I had enough embarrassments for today.

"Taehyung... are you okay?"

I looked up and gazed at those deep worried eyes. My eyes trailed on the different parts of his ethereal face. I clenched my fists hard. I want to cup his face so much. I want to slowly brush my fingers on his soft skin. His cheeks, his nose... I want to shower them with kisses. And his lips, those plump lips... so soft and tempting... I want to feel it. I want to explore it.

"Hey, Tae! Are you okay?"

No, Jin! I am fucking NOT OKAY. Damn, you don't know what I'm thinking right now!

I feel so guilty for having these thoughts about you.

Ok, It's a lie! I am NOT totally guilty because I really want you.

You are driving me nuts!

"Are you okay, Tae?"

I snapped from my thoughts. I slapped myself (not literally... just in my mind).

Thank heavens, I was just lost in thought and my body did not act on its own.

Jin had already placed the food on the table.

Was I spacing out so much that I did not notice him do that?

"Yes.. hehe" I gave a weak half-hearted smile. "Ow... everything looks delicious, Jin." including you..

I took out my chopstick and was about to dip it on the bulgogi when our hands brushed with each other.

Yes, our hands brushed with each other!

Our skins slightly twinged at a sudden spark of static electricity.

We pulled our hands away... and there was a moment of silence.

We both coughed at the same time and laughed dryly.

"Tae, you take some bulgogi first..."

"No, you should take some first..."

Not giving in, I went to take some Japchae.

And guess what?

The same thing happened: the brushing of hands, the static electricity, the awkward coughs, the forced laugh...

"Tae, you take the bulgogi first.. I'll take some Japchae.."

"Sounds good to me."

This tension is slowly killing me.

I know, Jin is also feeling the same way. I noticed that he took deep breaths once in a while.

But you know, what is slowly torturing me?

My pants is getting tighter...

Something beneath it is growing and twitching...

You know what I mean...

I have to break this tension and lighten this atmosphere...

... before the zipper of my pants burst.

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A/N:

Don't worry, Tae. You'll get through this.

Sorry for the curses and the slow build up. I hope you're enjoying this fic. Thank you for reading. =)