Letters of Unconciousness

23rd Hour

~ Gabriella ~

Nate,

So about ten minutes ago I was in extreme agony and now I am in a world of butterflies and rainbows although my body hasn't changed what its doing.

For some odd reason my body is trying to empty itself comletely however in doing so I think I am going to lose a couple of organs and perhaps a lung at this rate. There isn't much else that it can try and get out so thats what I conclude it is trying to do. It is trying to kill me, it is offical. It is trying to kill me by bringing my insides and putting them on the outside. Although I've always known it's been trying to kill me. That much is pretty obvious.

I must admit it is a good plan to kill me that way, then my death would be considered medically related rather than suicide. But it's still suiide, mind vs body. Kind of hoping mind wins. But the body's plan would not be exactly possible without an outside source or force. Sadly I am not willing to help my body in this endeavour and niether are my doctors or the people around me. So stupid body consider the attempt and mission failed.

I just thought I would let you knw this because that is the reason for the uneven wording and all the changing fonts and stuff in my writing. You know my sister is sitting here laughing at me too. She said and I quote,
"How are the contractions going? What's that ten in one minute? Surely the baby should be popping out soon."
And now as I write she is saying,
"Since your not pregnant, when you are and it comes to childbirth you'll be able to push that sucker out so easily and when it's done say I've been in worse pain. That was a piece of cake. And that baby is going to seem like the easiest thing you've ever gone through in a hospital." And now she has just decided to add, "Ooh and we all know who will be the father when that day comes."

If I had any energy and a spare movement I would have thrown something at her but considering I'm still in a little pain even though the painkillers have kicked in. I had nothing to throw at her other than the letters I'm currently writing. I didn't exactly want her to see what I'm writting to people. I'll tell you though.

So in my cousins letter I just wrote a heap of stuff out of my diary like I have written for you in previous letters and it is actually a little surprising how much you feature in those. She loves you by the way so if things fail between you and me, she's on your boat.

I wrote one to my sister which detailed why I love her and why i am so sure that she will find the right guy to spend the rest of her life with. It also detailed how I think that she should wear more blue. But also more importantly it detailed that she should not make fun of a girl on a hospital bed because there is one of two options. And she can only get away from one option because the other will occur. The two possible outcomes that I will personally see through one of them are:

1----> When I get better there will be slight bodily harm or emotional harm caused to her as an act of revenge against her for making fun of me in hospital. The severity and time are yet to be confirmed of this.

However I have decided to start a list and you Mr Nate are up there in my top few.

2---> If I die (hopefully won't happen until much later in life) I will haunt her and taunt her in an act of revenege.But secretly that will also be my way of telling her that I am still with her and always will be.

So I also wrote a letter to my grandparents which details what I think will happen in the AFL season to come. I have predicted that in a case of extreme miracles Essendon will win the grand final. If not it will be Port Adelaide or Fremantle. To win the Anzac Day clash it will be Essendon by 13 points. To win the Dreamtime at the 'G it will be Richmond (sadly) by 12 points (1.6). I have also decided to declare who will be the top 8 teams to battle it out in the final series. In no particular order,
Essendon, Fremantle, Port Adelaide, Hawthorn, Sydney, Geelong, Gold Coast and Richmond (our dreamtime loss can't be for nothing).

As you can see Collingwood will not be a part of the top 8 teams this season however I believe they will come 9th or 10th close with Carlton. I also have full faith in Gold Coast suns who I believe will get beaten in the semi finals against either Fremantle, Port Adelaide or Essendon. But next year, next year Gold Coast will go all the way. I have a strong feeling about this. Bring it home the suns.

I wrote a rather long letter to Cara. It basically instructs her to live life well. Keep smiling and never give up on her dreams or herself. I want for her to fulfil her potential so much! I want that so much for her. In her letter I also included some bits that if she got the time she would message to people on behalf of me or to fill people in. I don't quite remember if I put you on the list of contacts but I'm sure she will send it to you anyways.

I also wrote another letter to my Dad which included some stuff about the AFL, but also random things we've spoken about like when the meerkat will get pregnant, when the shark will have to be replaced in the hospital. I've always included my guestimate that Dad will buy a new bike and begin riding it before my sister goes back to University. I kind of forced that on him because the letter includes a cheque for enough money that I saved up from working ages ago.

In my letter to mum it included enough money for her to buy those vine creepers that she has been waiting for to buy. They are these metal wire things which vines can crawl up and grow off. They are so cool she has just never bought them and I know the exact reason why so now I am giving back.

I can feel myself beginning to gag so I'm going to put the pen down.

Remember : We don't stop playing because we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing.

Endless Love,
Gabriella