Letters of Unconciousness

10.00am

~ Nate ~

The next letter wasn't until 10.00am the next morning. Which was now just under 25 hours away. It was painful not having letters as often anymore. But I don't know when she would have had enough time to write these next ones. The time of writing seemed so close to the surgery. It was just weird.

As we exited the car I had just finished reading the letter. The hospital car park was surrounding me and there wasn't much else to look at while I thought about the letter.

As Gabby had said the writing was uneven and you could tell when she had lifted the pen for a long period of time. You could also see the scrunches in the paper and the folds perhaps due to falling. I didn't know for sure but I could certainly guess. If I wanted to know I could have asked her sister in the chair in front of me. But recalling pain was not something I enjoyed forcing on other people. Her sister had barely gotten any sleep I could tell. Her Dad though seemed as though he had slept the whole time but not happily. At least he would not be tired, her mother on the other hand would be exhausted when we get into the hospital. She would barely be able to keep her eyes open I am sure.

I tried to look for the bags under her sisters eyes and noticed they are always getting darker. She never sleeps but thankfully she does eat. But now I couldn't look at her the same. The letter just changed my views on her. I literally laughed out loud in the car when I read what she said. It was so different to hear that her sister had said that though. I knew she had humour and would always try to brighten the day with either stupidity or plain genius but this was a new side. Somehow though I figured this was not the first remark of the sort to be said to Gabby.

Her sister and I were close. We talked and helped each other through lots. Whenever I'm unsure about something she is my go to person. Whenever Gabby leaves the house and is in a bad mood I know about it because her sister texts me. We have a mutual relationship because of Gabby. It's nice.

But the fact she thought about me and Gabby dating and having a child is a tad weird. I'd love to have kids with Gabby have a family and raise little us's. But that might not be possible.

Already Gabriella and I are very very open with each other. It's weird that I have learnt so much more about her through these letters because I thought I knew almost everything.

For crying out loud I knew she is too sick and too weak to have her period. Due to the illness she has been deemed unable to bear a child by her body. Maybe a year in she had lost it all together or something but she had told me it was pretty irregular due to the sickness. I worried a little but she told me it was normal she just hopes when she gains all the weight back and the illness becomes a thing of the past she will get it back. And therefore be able to have kids one day. It's a big hope but she is full of positivity that child.

As we stepped into the waiting room and I joined the extended family I immediately found her grandparents. I was hoping that they would have for their letter about the football and whatever so I could talk to someone about just how whack she is.

"Hello," they laughed to themselves as they removed their glasses to look at me.
"Hello Nate, we were just reading a letter from Gabriella. She has high hopes for the football world this year."
"Did you get all her predictions?"
"Yes have you heard them?"
"Not all."

As I sat and spoke to them it felt like she was right there with us. Because whenever I would give my prediction they would read hers as if she was correcting me. It made me laugh. It kept my mind off all the things around me and I finally could relax again. One of her Aunties that had spoken to me yesterday almost walked into a door whilst reading a letter.

It was quite amazing how a little letter from someone we couldn't talk too could mean so much. We all seemed to make no mistake in reading it. I almost walked over to sit with her and hear what her letter had inside when Gabriellas father called me over.
"Nate she said to keep the conversation going so your up."