October 11

21

Nicole's pov

"Why?"

"Because I already
have a boyfriend "

I literally ran upstairs to my room.... why did I fucking kiss him back! Now he'll think I like him

Ahh but you do

No I don't...would you please shut up am trying to think

You seem to be forgetting something darling

And what would that be

That we are the same person you idiot

I face palm myself after the little talk I had with my subconscious as I gradually crept out of my room downstairs to check if Nate was still out there and thankfully he's not going back up I decided to scrub my body,particularly my lips..... okay hold on this wasn't my first kiss but I still feel uneasy...I felt like a volcano inside me was about to erupt when we normally brushed arms or something but when we kissed it was like I was being electrified by something so incredible that I couldn't place my finger on... the way his lips felt...
stop thinking about him and get a grip on yourself Nikki!! He obviously doesn't like you I try to convince myself but I knew better I just had to think about Bola cause he was the one I love and I can't be kissing random guys wherever I go

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Why is there something called morning??
Why can't I just sleep for days...that wouldn't hurt, I groaned covering my face back with my blanket.... after what felt like two seconds it was yanked back again!

Urgh! This is the most stressful thing I've ever had to do in the morning....
I gripped the blanket and covered my face again tucking it real tight so it won't come off again

But you know what? Just as I was about to drift back to sleep again... the blanket got ripped off my whole body and I was freaking cold!!

"As much as I'd love to see you pull your blanket still in you're sleep, you have to get up if you don't wanna be late to school today " 

That voice... I think I know it... it sounds too familiar
It's sooo deep and high pitched at the same time.... I thought with my eyes still closed

"I do not have a high pitched voice Nikki "

Now I feel like my dream is becoming kinda real... I could almost feel that persons presence

"Okay! That's it"

Suddenly I felt like I was being thrown in a pool.... I started touching my face and realized that I was actually wet!

"Why the hell did you do that?!" I screeched fully awake now

"Finally...I thought you were going to keep talking in your sleep and not wake up"
My nice sweet caring brother who thought it was polite to dump cold water on he's sleeping sister when the weather is a freaking -13 degrees just to wake up from her slumber..... not rude at all

"Well, couldn't you just tap me or something?" I asked rubbing my eyes

"Am not even having this conversation with you.... just get ready for school "

"Am not going today....I don't really feel that good "
I said remembering what happened at school... I don't wanna give Maddison the opportunity to mock me I reall have no time for her bitchy attitude anyway

"Fine but when I get back... you're gonna have to tell me what's wrong and then we'll eat lots of ice cream and watch horror movies "

"Cool"