October 11

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I have never been this scared of meeting someone for coffee before and it literally just scares me,a lot.

I decide on wearing my black and white hoodie with matching sweatpants and a pair of converse... No need to dress up since I'll be heading to school anyway after...
I mean, you don't have to look good for the lockers,or bathrooms or doors... You just have to wear what you feel comfortable with.....
Ninety eight percent of girls in my grade wear clothes that are way to revealing and I refrain from getting into details because its just disgusting to think about, like if you want a guy to look at you,then wear something girl and act like you're worth diamonds cause you definitely are,not wearing pieces of clothing that looks like rags cause you're just literally asking them to sleep with you

Okay now am just going way off topic.... Am supposed to be complaining about how I was going to survive  a meeting with my so called best friend and here am I talking about dressing...........

I decided to enter my car after what seems like hours having a battle in my head, I drove to the coffee shop to meet with Joan

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"Thank you for agreeing to meet up with me after everything I said"
When I arrived at the café, Joan had already ordered my usual so all I had to do was wait and listen to her talk, yay!
Note the sacarsm

"Whatever,let's just get this over with, I have more important things to do."
I didn't have time to backtrack on what I said cause that was so rude of me

"I'm so sorry I didn't mean for it to come out that wa-"

"Really?!" She cut me off

Seeing that I wasn't going to reply ,she continued

"Why do you have to be so difficult?"

"Me? Difficult?" I scoff

"Yes,you know, the world doesn't revolve around you Nicole! Why do you have to make everything seem as if its all about you and no one else huh? Do you ever think about how the other person is feeling!? No wonder Tori decided to date Jamie behind your back because of how controlling you are"

"Don't you dare bring Tori into this convo,cause we're not here to talk about them,you're supposed to be apologizing in case you forgot"

Instead of being hurt,she laughs

"Wow,you also are very rude and i can't believe am realizing this just now. Also you're clearly avoiding that topic cause you know am right, and yes I wanted to apologize for how I approached you about what  happened to you in October although I don't see why I have to apologize again because you need to keep that damn selfish attitude of yours in check....normally I would think you're acting this way because of you're brothers arrest but you don't see how that attitude of yours affects those around you! You did not once think about they way Tori felt anytime she has to go for a sleepover at your place and has to face Jamie but can't even talk to him because you said so!! How sick is that! I used to wonder how she put up with your controlling self but now I realized that she was a really good friend trying to suppress her happiness for someone who doesn't give two shits about her! You don't know how toxic you are no wonder they all died and left you all alone!"

I couldn't take it anymore stood up and slapped Joan causing more people to gather at our table

"You have crossed the line Joan"

"Oh, and you haven't! Get a damn reality check girl cause you're really a mess"

And with that said she walks out of the café like nothing happened just a minute ago,and left the people who had gathered at our table murmur and talk shit about me right in front of me