(COMPLETED) Avoir Peur || •WAYV Ten•

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Continuation from Chapter 18

Ten

When I woke up, the same white ceiling welcomed me again just like the previous days that I've been confined here...

I roam my eyes to see if my brother's in here or not and luckily he's not...

I suddenly put my hand on top of my head when I feel the pin-dropping pain on it and I just can't help to closed my eyes on how painful it was...

This is the worst. I don't even like to feel this pain and I just wanted to bang my head or much more if I just remove my brain...

To tell you what my disease was? It's a type of brain disease that caused my life on the line ever since I've got this since I was young...

The doctors said that I was lucky that I still survived this type of brain disease because normally for people who have suffered this kind of disease won't last long like I was...

But still even though I'm breathing and living my life normally, I sometimes think that I wanted to end my life when I can't bear the never-ending pain that I've felt just now...

It's really awfully painful that sometimes I beg my brother to inject me something that would make me fall asleep so that I won't feel it anymore...

Still some people told me that I'm still lucky that I'm alive. Though I never felt thankful that I'm still breathing, my brother told me that even if I didn't want to live again, I just have to remember that he's still here that I never wanted to live behind...

Well.............I knew things would be impossible now, I knew I'll make my brother sad again after so many years have passed ever since our Mom died, that's the last time I saw him breaking down in front of me...

Hope is counting down at me. My life right now is like a candle that someone light it on and I just have to wait when it well melt and when the light will burn out...

Before I really wanted to die but right now I some kind of regretted the decision to wish for that I just wanted to die and leave everything behind...

When I just realized how my brother cared so much for me that long and how he struggled for the both of us just to live and survive, I never knew before how much he had sacrificed and how great of a brother he is...

And when I also met and knew Sung Ji. I then realized that for the short time that we've known each other, paint together, and how I knew how her smile is too precious for a unworthy person for me that witnessed how an angel just smiled...

I already knew that it was too late for me to realize that I wouldn't like to leave for awhile. I still wanted to see her, her smile and how she paint me, I wanted her to paint for me for the last time...

And I still wanted to thank my brother and how grateful I was that I have a brother like him. I knew that if I'll leave sooner or later maybe I can ease the burden that I have caused for him over this years...

I heard the door opened and I saw my brother walked in. I saw how tired he was and I think he doesn't have enough sleep, maybe because of checking me 24/7...

When he saw me, his face light up a bit then suddenly changed into sadness and pain. He almost like he wanted to cry while he wanted to say something to me but I think it's too hard for him, so I'll ask him first...

"How long has left?" I asked softly.

He most likely forced himself not to break down and I felt how my heart sting just witnessing how my brother is in pain in behalf of me...

"O-One.........m-month........"

I just lookee down while I plastered a small smile on my face. See for yourself Ten? You're wish before will soon come true...

I just watched the sunset on my window. Hoping that days will be long for awhile while I'm still enjoying my remaining days breathing...

"Can I go back to school next week?"

I knew it's against from my health to leave the bed. I just wanted to see Sung Ji for the last time and tell her that maybe I couldn't be able to attend at the art exhibition on the next month's art festival...

(A/N: Sorry guys, I changed the Art Festival to next month, the previous chapter where I wrote when the Art Festival will held, I'll also changed it to next month, thanks!)

"Maybe it will be the last time I'll see her"

Next month will be December, and the leaves on the trees were now starting to fall off. I remembered what Sung Ji told me that she hated snow and she wouldn't ever wished to witness the first fall of snow...

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