(COMPLETED) Avoir Peur || •WAYV Ten•

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"Ten?"

He hummed maybe wondering why I called his name...

He keeps on staring from the cherry blossom trees above us. He's delicate eyes still glued on falling petals and those hands that he tried to catch it in the air were he held it gently in his palms...

He's like a gentle boy who just like to enjoy petals falling and flower viewing. I almost lost my question to him because I was preoccupied on how gentle he looks like right now in front of me, he seems like a different version of him that I liked to see everyday...

"U-Uhm...*ehem* w-what........w-what if our painting won't get chosen?"

He gently blow the petal that placed on his palm and I just watch it fall from the ground...

"Did you just saw how the petal fall on the ground?"

He asked and I just nodded at him in confusion...

"Does it stay beautiful?"

I looked at the fallen petal once again and nod...

"It's just like a painting, it doesn't matter if it will be chosen or not because it's still stay the same and beautiful. A painter must know that whatever he painted, if it's coming from him then it will always be beautiful and someday it might be chosen by someone who knows how to appreciate the works of the painter"

I just listen while looking him saying that long but motivated line then he suddenly looked at my way but I just looked at his eyes...

"But I knew it will be chosen because yours is the most wonderful"

I was surprised but it made me feel inspired but the day I saw his painting, I realized that his is the most wonderful and I want to know why he painted that. I wanted answers, I wanted to know what he saw me at that time...

****

I just keep on running and I'm almost at the hospital where Ten would be confined...

My legs almost gave up and so us my breath. My uniform is full of sweat and I also bumped unto some people due to tiredness...

I've run almost 30 minutes now and it's not easy. Sometimes I almost got lost the sight of the ambulance because I run slowly when my feet started to get numb again but I didn't care and the important thing right now is I'm almost there!!!

'Ten.........please wait for me!............I'm on my way to see you!...........please..........please wait for me...............I badly want to see you!'

When I remembered the short period of time that we've spent months before he didn't come back to school. It made me cry because I wished we will get back like it used to be before. Not worrying of some things, just enjoyed the moment of life...

I already grown comfortable with him. He taught me things that I got blinded to myself. He let me see positive things again but I didn't know that I didn't able to save himself...

I sometimes think that I am a selfish person and just thinking of myself. When there's someone whom need to be taken care of. I was blind! Ten's alwayd there helping me but I couldn't even save him!!!

I literally burst in crying while running hoping that I would still see him, breathing and looked at me in the eyes...

I wanted to touch his hand and carefully held it into mine so it won't get broken...

He's too fragile to look at when he suddenly shows up again after so much days of absence. He's not in his usual self that's why I sometimes felt afraid to approach him because I felt like I might break him...

But right now, I regretted it. I regretted of why did I doubted myself so much?! If I haven't doubted myself maybe we can have a moment like we're in the garden!!!

No, that's not the thing I shall regretted about. I shall make it to the hospital so I won't regretted something again...

****

At the time that I finally arrived at the hospital. I quickly came over at the front liners desk to ask if there's a newly arrived patient in emergency...

"E-Excuse m-me.............w-where's the p-patient that a-arrived i-in an a-ambulance?"

I slowly catch my breath while a nurse is searching for Ten's name. And a minute later she already found it...

"Are you pertaining to Mr. Leechaiyapornkul that just arrived?"

"Y-Yes!!! T-That's the patient t-that I've been looking for"

"He's currently at the ICU, still checked him all over because they found out that he has suffered of some kind of disease so the doctors must survey him again, are you his relative?"

"D-Diease......? U-Uhm.........n-no I'm his classmate and can I wait until his relative arrived?"

"Okay Miss, and Mr.Leechaiyapornkul's brother is on the way so you can just wait outside the ICU"

"O-Okay.......t-thank you......"

"U-Uhm.......Miss a-are you okay? You can't seem to breath properly?"

"U-Uhm........n-no.......I-I'm fine.......thank you again"

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