(COMPLETED) Avoir Peur || •WAYV Ten•

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After brother leave the room, I offered Ternforth to sit on the sofa opposite on my bed...

We're both filled with silence for a moment until Ternforth opened the conversation and I'm hoping I could get a grip until the end of this conversation regarding Ten...

"Sigh~...........as you may already know........my brother suffered from a brain disease.......it's started when he's still 5 years old..."

He just looked at his clasped hands while I just waited for him to continue about Ten's situation...

"I remembered how it first started to prevail in his life that made him at risk of dying at such a young age because doctors keep telling us that most who have suffered from a disease like his most likely won't survive after the surgery.................so me and my mom decided not to take him for surgery and despite of being a least percent chance of surviving, we have no enough money to undergo surgery.........."

It must've been very hard and maybe that time Ternforth still on his middle or high school but was their Dad weren't living with them? Goodness Sung Ji you're being so nosy again, it's rude if you ask about their family affairs and just listen what he had wanted to tell!

"Our father leave us after he and Mom decided to get divorced...............but after Ten falls in to sickness..............our Mother decided to leave us both when she couldn't take living her life in poverty, hunger, and in debt and we think that's the reason why she killed herself *sad laugh*"

I couldn't find any words on the tip of my tongue after what he just told me, I couldn't believe their own mother leave them by killing herself regardless of taking care of her two children. I know it's not my business to judge their late Mother and maybe she did that because she had enough of living in this world...

I just shut my mouth and waited Ternforth to continue, it must've been hard to tell me that past memory that if I'm in his situation, it's even hard and painful to remember that kind of past...

"Hence..............I have no choice but to take the responsibility of taking care of my brother................I worked, I study, I take cared of my sick brother because I have no one left behind except my brother..............he's the only family left for me to protect, love and care until we find and build our own families, fall in love, taking care of kids and watching him grow old as I am..............but now.................I-I think it's started to get impossible..............all of that things that I wished for the future of my brother.........*teary-eyed*"

I can't help my tears to fall after hearing that. An older brother's wish for the future of his sick little brother, hoping he will live a long life and grow old together...

Suddenly I remembered my brother from when he said the same thing as Ternforth's. I realized who elder siblings had made so much sacrifices for their younger siblings in order for them to live a happy life in the future. They protect and cared them when there's no one who could even parents couldn't have taken the responsibility well...

"T-Ten told me how he didn't want to take the surgery even if I wanted him to do it. When he fell too sick I persuaded him a few times to just do it so he wouldn't endure the pain any longer. But he just told me that he wanted to die in pain than die after the surgery who had not even a percent of chance to survive hahaha maybe it was too selfish for me to force him to live even though he said that he wanted to die whenever the pain takes over again and again"

He turned to look at me so I look at him back. The look of a loving brother towards Ten is looking right through me, though he's hurting inside yet he still manage to look up and smile...

"I never knew he still wanted to take a last look of the girl he like before he'll left. I remembered how he painted that beautiful girl in a painting the she's filled with cherry blossoms. When I observed him painted that, he feels calm like he didn't endure someting for the first time I saw him like that. Maybe I shall thank you for that and for how you made my brother to forget the pain he had suffered for awhile *smile*"

I gulp the lump of my throat to stop my tears from falling. My heart feels like it sunken from pain. He smiled, a smile filled with gratitude and sadness...

"Yesterday..............it was the last time he begged me that he wanted to take a last look at the school and maybe at you also *sad smile* he said to me................maybe he will not make it to the next spring where cherry blossom trees will bloom again.............he also said maybe he couldn't even watch you paint anymore"

That moment I broke down in tears. Crying hard as I can after what Ternforth said. It didn't stop from making my heart crushed so much...

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