(COMPLETED) Avoir Peur || •WAYV Ten•

16

Ten

The first few days when he didn't show up in class...

I woke up feeling heavy on my head. When I adjusted my sight to my surrounding, I saw white walls, white curtains and white beddings and even a white single bed. That's when I realized that I'm in a hospital because of the anesthesia that attaches on mu skind and there's even couple of wirings that attached in my body...

I sighed because he finally caught me again. I don't even like it in here  nor even visit here, I hated this place...

I tried to move my hands but when I couldn't that's when I found out that I've been tied on the bed, well just my free hand though...

I sighed again because of frustration. He even have the guts to tied me on the bed huh?! This is absurd!!!

I tried to free my hand where the anesthesia is attached. But then someone stopped me before I even get my mouth to remove the anesthesia...

"Don't even try to remove it Chittaphon"

"Oh you finally showed up your ass, brother *glare*"

My brother just sighed in  defeat, he let go of his hand where my anesthesia almost get to removed but he arranged it back and that made me hissed because it's sting...

"You just did that on purpose *glare*"

"Yes because so that you know how much a hard-headed brother you are *smirk*"

I just didn't mind what he said and just stared at the window of the hospital room. The sunlights struck lightly into my face and the wind made the curtain dance...

"Did you know that you fainted again last night?"

My brother ask, as you can already see that he's a doctor but well technically my doctor. He's the one who take over from my previous doctor when I was still young and yeah it's obvious that I suffered from a disease and it started when I was just a five-year old kid...

I just remained silent hoping that someone would call him for rounds and so that I could be alone and be one with the silence. I don't care if I fainted again, I got used to it you see?

"Chittaphon!"

"I SAID I WON'T DO THE SURGERY!"

He was taken aback after I shouted. I looked at him hoping he would see that I wouldn't wish to proceed with a f*cking surgery that has only 0.1% chance to live!

"I KNOW YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'LL BE GOING TO OPERATE ME! BUT EVEN THOUGH HOW I TRUSTED YOU THAT IT WOULD BE SUCCESSFUL, I WILL STILL DIE!!! DON'T YOU GET IT?!! YOU'RE A DOCTOR SO YOU MUST KNOW THAT IFNI PROCEED THROUGH SURGERY AND IF IT WILL BECOME SUCCESSFUL, I WILL STILL LIVE IN A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME!!! WHY COULDN'T YOU JUST LET ME DIE IN PEACE?!!"

"STOP IT!!!"

I composed myself so that I won't breakdown completely. My throat hurts after shouting at my brother. I couldn't............I couldn't take it anymore...........can they just leave me alone because I'll just enjoy my remaining days while I'm still breathing? I wouldn't ask for more! I just want to live for awhile!

"You know why I proceeded to pursue in medicine?"

He just looked down at the floor, unable to looked at me but I already knew that he forced himself not to cry in front of me. What a crybaby of an older brother...

"I-I wanted to cure you Ten, I-I still wanted you to live. See you court someone, love someone and build you're own family. I still want to be an uncle of my future nieces and nephews. But overall I wanted to see you getting older and have you enjoy your own life without getting anxious from a disease that cause your life on the line"

Please, stop imagining things that are impossible to happen! I didn't even imagine myself that I'll live that long and have thay kind of future that I wanted to expect, hahahaha! I can't even imagine myself if I'll still be alive tomorrow or not!

"Stop hallucinating from the future, you already know that it's impossible"

"*Chuckle* I knew you would say that"

He started to get up from his swivel chair that he sat on earlier and started to walk over the door. I'm just looking at his back hoping that he won't visit here again so that I won't be guilty seeing him devastated...

"I-If you change your mind, just let me kno---"

"I won't so please stop asking"

"O-Oh.............I-I understand........rest well first"

After he left, I slumped myself on the bed and stared at the ceiling, hoping that someone would come and fetch my soul from this d*mn world...

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