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18

Ten

Another few days that he didn't show up to school again before...

Maybe life is against me from leaving behind this same d*mn hospital room that I just got discharged the other day no......more like forced discharged though...

After I the day that I showed up again to school, I didn't even had a break from forcing myself the whole d*mn day to get rid of the pain that I felt that time...

It was irritating that I couldn't even focused on class. I knew Ae Rim noticed already that something's wrong and even Miss Jung (our Trigonometry teacher and my brother's fiancée) was obviously worried the whole time in her class but she didn't even budge to ask, maybe my brother ask him to let me be...

(A/N: Sorry for telling you this late guys and Y E S, Miss Jung and Ten's brother are engaged that's why Miss Jung is kind towards Ten, not that because she's the brother of her fiancé but because she's just a good person)

After we got dismissed from our last subject, I didn't waste time to come back home because any minute now I'll passed out. I regretted myself that I forgot to bid goodbye from Ae Rim and just gone straight home...

I didn't know if my brother's home already. We're just living together after our parents divorced then my father leave us when I was just 4 years old while my brother's in high school...

It was difficult for us especially from our mother when I reached the age of 5 when I was diagnosed from the disease that I suffered until now. It caused us too much to suffer from poverty until my Mother couldn't take the stress and just killed herself by hanging her body on the ceiling with a rotten rope...

I erased that memory hoping that it will erased on my mind. I just focused on myself right now which I'm doing the best I can while bearing the pain even though I no longer have enough strength I still forced myself to have a grip so I won't passed out on my way back home...

When the bus finally reached where I usually stopped. I grab myself up hoping that I won't stumbled myself and luckily I didn't...

Just a little more walk then I'll be right in front of the house. I can already feel that I'm starting to loose consciousness so I have to lean unto something that could support my body...

My head already feels heavy and my eyes already wanted to close and just wanted to have a long sleep. Good thing I can still see that I'm almost at the front door even though things already got blurry...

When I finally reached the door, I'm almost thank the heavens that my brother just opened the door and I didn't hesitate to let myself passed out because I just wanted to get some sleep...

"T-Ten?!! H-Hey........d-don't ever f*cking close your eyes or I'll throw you out of the house! T-Ten!!! G-Get a grip on yourself, we're going to the hospital!!!"

"B-Brother *breaths heavily* I-I'm t-tired *breaths heavily* I-I w-wanted t-to g-get s-some s-sleep"

"Oh n-no you're not going t-to s-sleep o-on my arms or I'll slap that face of yours!!!"

"W-Why? *breaths heavily* a-are y-you s-some k-kind o-of n-nervous?"

"Don't f*ckin’ talk!!! Just get a grip!!! We're almost there!!!"

I didn't even realize that my brother just carried me on his back to the hospital. If I didn't feel that my head's just keep on bumping on his back maybe I'm still thinking that I'm still at the front door of our house...

Ever since Mom died, my brother is the only one who keeps helping me to get to the hospital when my disease starts to emerged again. He's still in high school and he already carried a big responsibility by keeping me alive and taking care of me even though it's clearly hard when I saw his tired face while I stayed at the hospital for a few days...

And here I am, still being a big responsibility. Since he graduated high school, college and until he became a doctor. He still carries me on his back and run towards the hospital...

Luckily when he got a house of our own. There's a nearest hospital on where we live and he's also working there so it's easier from the both aspects...

For those years that he's taking care of me, I sometimes think that what if I just die from the moment I sleep at night so that he won't be too tired of taking care of me. I knew how much he suffered ever since our parents were gone but even now I still didn't hear him that he already gave up on me...

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