(COMPLETED) Avoir Peur || •WAYV Ten•

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The next day after Ternforth and I talked. I told my brother that I'll stay at Ten for a day and I'll go back to school after and fortunately he agreed but he told me to go home before dinner and since I must have rest after getting discharged earlier this morning...

Right now I just sitting while looking at Ten sleeping state. His head had a bandage where he had his injury from the last time, an oxygen mask, and a monitor where it indicated his vital signs and need to br checked from time to time...

He looks pretty calm right now like he's not in pain or even suffering. I smiled knowing that he didn't have to feel any pain for now and just sleep whenever he wants to. And it makes me scared thinking what if he didn't ever want to wake up again because he's too tired? What if he would gave up?

I put my hand on top of his and I gently placed it on my face, still looking at him and tears started to form on my eyes again threatened me to let them go and just cried my eyes out. Yet I don't want to, I wanted Ten to wake up without me crying in front of him. I wanted to be strong until he recovers. I shouldn't show him while I'm also weak seeing in his state. I wanted to be strong for the both of us...

"Ten-ah....................w-wake up please..............*holds tears*............I-I.......I-I promised to myself that I won't c-cry.........I-I wanted to be strong f-for you.......f-for the b-both of us.........Ten-ah...........the Art Festival is coming soon.............we still have to tell everyone about our paintings............we still have to tell them how we made it up, together......even though we're working it individually but I felt like we're working together like we've work on a single painting...............y-you know..............w-when spring comes again..............I still wished to be able to spend time with you on the cherry blossom garden *sad smile*.....................so can you please wake up now?"

My tears were urging to come out. My heart's been aching when I hold back my tears so much. It pains me a lot but Ten's situation is much more painful than my feelings right now while keep on telling him to wake up...

"T-Ten-ah.................i-it's December now.............the f-first fall of snow is c-coming a-and I still hated it and I-I still don't like t-to witness it............I-I'm still afraid to face it...........I-I'm still a coward from my past...........b-but if you already woken up on the day the snow falls...............a-and if you wish to witness it I-I.............I-I'll gather u-up the courage to face it w-with you.............s-so make sure you've woken up on the first fall of snow okay?"

‘Ten-ah...........if you're goung to be by my side while I overcome my weakness...........I think I can able to face it.............hold my arms tight while I gather up the snow on my hands.............feel the coldness while my free hand is warm because of yours..........maybe my fear on Winter will be gone at once so..........please wake up now..........I'll wait for you..................I-I...........I-I love you T-Ten’

Ten

Can I ask my brother about "those" things? Hmm.............better to try it out...

"Brother?"

"Hmm? *chewing on his food*"

We're eating dinner so I think it's also okay to ask something that I still couldn't find any answer of my problem...

"C-Can I ask you about something?"

"Shour gow ahewd...(Sure go ahead)"

I'm still hesitating for awhile if I'll continue to ask about it but here goes nothing...

"Uhmm...how can you confirm that you already falling for someone?"

*Cough* *cough* *cough*

I was startled when my brother suddenly choke on his food after I ask him after that. He looks surprised of my question though and maybe because I didn't ask him about these things before. I'm also surprised about it myself too...

"*Cough* *cough* just why are you suddenly asking me that kind of question, Chi.ttap.hon?"

He's menacing gaze feels like it's making me unable to escape from his interrogation though I felt the aura around him suddenly change to seriousness like he's dealing a big situation...

"U-Uhmm...............I-I just ask about it a-and I wanted t-to know when you're able to notice that you're already felt something from that person, aside from being comfortable around them?"

He literally put down his eating utensils then focusing on my question. He looks like a lawyer right now trying to find out how to free his client on court...

"Hmm~...............so I just have to give you random questions and you have to give me an honest answers. ALL OF IT."

I nodded that indicates that I agreed on his terms...

"Is she pretty?"

"U-Uhm...I-I"

"It's just a Yes or No"

"Yes!"

"Is she your classmate or schoolmate?"

"Classmate"

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