"Luke?" I whispered, moving my hand around the bed in search for him. When I woke up, it was dark and the bed felt empty.
I shifted in my spot, sitting up and feeling around for my phone on the small table Luke had beside his bed. When I had it in my grasp, I checked the time. It was almost 3 in the morning.
The fact that Luke wasn't in bed made me a little worried, since it was nearly 3 and I don't know how long he's been gone.
I flicked the light on in the room after getting up, shielding my eyes from the light for a few seconds.
"Luke?" I called in a loud whisper, heading into the dark hall. I had my arms crossed, rubbing my own arms quickly due to the coldness. I squinted down one end of the hall- the end that led to the stairs, and then looked to the other side.
Even though it was dark, I could see outlines. There was a door at the end of the hall that I had never been in, or seen open, but I could briefly see that it was opened.
I put a hand against the wall, stepping through the darkness slowly, unsure of where I was walking as I called his name again, a little quieter.
When I knew I was at the door, I pushed it open the rest of the way and called for Luke again.
There was a shuffle, then a click, as if there was a bedside lamp that someone was turning on. After another click, dim light from a tiny lamp lit up the room poorly.
It was a bedroom, and Luke was sitting up against the headboard, now removing his hand from where the lamp was.
"Why are you awake?" He mumbled quietly, looking at me. I could tell he was crying again by the look I had gotten used to seeing the past few hours.
"I don't know.. I just woke up. You weren't in bed, so I got worried. Why are you awake?"
He shrugged, getting up from the bed. I had a feeling it was his mom's room that we were in, and judging by the picture frame on the bedside table that looked a lot like Liz and Luke, I'm sure it was.
"I couldn't sleep, so I came in here. I thought it would help a little."
I sighed and nodded, taking a few steps toward him and hugging him. He hugged me back, resting his chin on the top of my head.
"Do you want to come back to bed?" I mumbled tiredly into his chest, closing my eyes. It felt like I could barely keep them open, or hold myself up.
It was quiet for a second before Luke loosened his grip on my waist, murmuring a quiet "yeah" into the top of my head before he flicked off the light in the room.
He walked both of us back to his room like he knew that I probably couldn't make it without nearly falling due to how tired I was.
"Sorry for waking you up," Luke sighed, turning off the light in his own room and shutting the door before guiding us both back to the bed. I shrugged slightly, using a hand to rub the tiredness from my eyes just a little. "It's okay, you didn't wake me up anyways." I sighed, moving myself back to my spot on the bed.
Luke laid beside me, pulling the blanket over us again. He was laying on his back, and I had my head resting on his bare chest, curled slightly into his side.
I could hear his heartbeat clearly as his chest rose and fell again under my head, which lulled me closer to sleep and I was asleep quicker than I hoped.
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When I woke up later, there was sunlight coming in through the windows. Despite how bright it looked, the air still felt crisp and a little cold.
I looked beside me after blinking a few times in attempt to wake myself up, just to see Luke with his hands behind his head, gazing off at the ceiling.
I don't think he noticed me, but while laying there I couldn't help but stare at him.
"Music-note," I whispered, smiling a little when he turned to me, his hands still tucked under his head.
The first thing I noticed when he looked at me, was the slightly bloodshot eyes and the red, puffiness of his cheeks. I felt bad- but I didn't know what to do, I never had to do anything when this happened to me. I wish I could help, thats all I ever wanted to do.
Everytime I looked at him since the day before, I couldn't see anything in his eyes other than pain and sadness. I know its a little too soon, but I really wanted to just see him be happy again. Just so his mind wasn't so hung up on it.
Luke smiled weakly, shuffling a little closer and pressing a kiss against my forehead, as if I needed it more than he did. I rolled as close to him as I could with a soft chuckle before reaching around for his hand. We interlocked our fingers and he brought them up, kissing the back of my hand with a small smile.
"How long have you been awake?" I asked him, to which he shrugged slightly before mumbling. "Around an hour," He spoke with a pause, probably noticing that his voice wavered as he spoke before smiling at me, as if it made him look less hurt, "You're so cute when you sleep." He mumbled shortly after, making me blush lightly.
I snorted, letting go of his hand and pressing my palm against his face, "You're cute all the time."
Luke let out a short, hoarse laugh and gently moved my hand off of his face.
We stared at each other for a little while then, and I could see the same look in his eyes. His hand found mine again and his thumb rubbed continuous circles around the back of my hand, which was pressed lightly against the middle of his chest, just under his collarbones. We were laying close, both of us on our sides. If I moved any closer, our noses would be touching and I'm positive that neither of us would hesitate to move any closer. I was looking into his eyes- really looking into them. The sunlight from the windows weren't directly on us, but the beams of light did something to Luke's eyes that made them look like clear water despite the vague bloodshot look he had, his eyes seemed deeper than oceans and that made me feel like drowning wouldn't be so bad.
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the only reason this took so long to update is the fact that i don't like this chapter so i tweaked it a little and i feel a little better about it.
i feel bad 4 luke he is just trying to seem happy so jem is not upset but i am upset about it and luke is also upset
oka y so i have noTHING to say!!! the next few chapters might not b the cheeriest chapters obviously, but they will eventually get to it don't worry!!
so,, please vote/comment/whatever the heck u wanna do, see u later!!
- liberty
