𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐑

Chapter 28

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️
SELF HARM AND SUICIDE
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Mattia had never driven so fast. He was doing seventy in a fifty and he couldn't care less, all he cared about was getting to his baby. Mattia instantly assumed the worst and he was praying the entire time that he was wrong, that Kairi was fine, waiting for him to come home.

I shouldn't have gone to work.

Mattia screeched to a stop in front of his house, jumping out of the car and sprinting towards the door without shutting the car door. The unlocked door swung open widely and Mattia ran into the house, he had already called 911 in the car and they were on their way.

M: Kairi! Kairi I'm home. Baby?!

There was no response, Mattia started panicking, he sprinted up the stairs and head for his bedroom. He swung open the door, hoping that Kairi would be passed out in the bed, but he wasn't. Mattia felt a lump in his throat and it was getting hard to breathe. He saw a faint light coming from under the bathroom door and he instantly tried to enter, knocking on the door frantically, only to find that it was locked.

M: Kairi?! Baby can you hear me, open the door Kai, we can talk. Kairi please open the fucking door.

Mattia panicked when he heard no reply. He started throwing his shoulder against the door, trying to get to his baby. Finally, the door handle broke and Mattia fell into the bathroom. His momentary spark of joy at being able to finally break the door was instantly crushed when he looked down and realized that he was too late.

No. Please God, no.

He saw the empty bottle of pills on the floor and instantly understood what had happened. Mattia stopped breathing, he collapsed onto the tile floor beside Kairi. He started shaking him, trying to wake him up. He took Kairi's cold hand in his own. Mattia dropped Kairi's hand again and sucked in a breath that he didn't realize he had been holding.

M: K-Kairi? No, no, no. Why. Kairi, please come back to me. Baby please, come back.

Mattia gathered up Kairi's limp body, clutching him tightly to his chest. Kairi's head fell back as Mattia's tears fell on his pale face.

M: n-no. Kairi come back. Please. I need you, I love you. Come back.

He can't come back

Mattia pressed his lips against Kairi's cold and lifeless ones. As if a true love's kiss would wake him up.

M: Baby come back to me. Why. Why did you go. Kairi I love you.

He's dead.

Mattia felt his heart break. His heart hurt so bad that he wished that there were enough pills left so that he could join Kairi in heaven. Mattia ran his hands over his boyfriend's soft face, he looked peaceful. Mattia's tears fell on Kairi's face, leaving wet streaks. Mattia barely even realized that the paramedics had arrived and entered the bathroom until someone was trying to pry him away from Kairi's body. Mattia fought back. He knew that no matter what the paramedics did, they were too late. Kairi was dead, gone forever. He continued to clutch his dead boyfriend's body, screaming his sorrow into Kairi's hair. He pulled away and looked at Kairi's pale face.

M: I love you Kairi, I love you so much. Why did you leave me? Why.

The paramedics continued to try and get Mattia to let go of Kairi's body and when he finally did the smaller boy was instantly taken out of the room. Mattia sat on the bathroom floor staring at the wall, he didn't realize that he was still screaming until he couldn't breath anymore and he sucked in a gasping breath. The paramedics tried to console Mattia and calm him down but he could barely hear them. All he could think about was everything that he and Kairi wouldn't do together. Everything that was suddenly taken from him. Mattia stayed there like that for what felt like hours not speaking to anyone, just crying. He stayed there until he watched his mother burst into the bathroom and kneel down in front of him. He saw her mouth moving but didn't hear her words. He watched her reach out to hug him, but he didn't feel her touch. He felt nothing, nothing but grief and pain. His best friend, his boyfriend, his everything; was dead......

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jeez. i was in a dark place