when to let go | l.h.

eleven

it took about a week to fully become settled in luke's apartment. i spent most of my time unpacking, when i wasn't being distracted by luke or petunia which was quite often.

luke would try to help me unpack, he really would, but most time ended with him and petunia laying in my bed watching. that man loved his dog and i can't lie, she's growing on me too.

when luke isn't home, she follows me around and lays beside me while i attempt to unpack but, a lot of times i end up like luke, cuddling the cute dog and by the time i'd feel motivated to work again, luke would be getting home soon so i'd start dinner instead.

as much as he says i don't have to because he invited me to live with him, i still feel as if i need to prove to luke i'm not just using him and that i really am grateful he let me move in.

it took about a week but i eventually sucked it up and finished the dreaded task of unpacking. luke was laid out on my bed with petunia in his arms once again when i finished putting the last of my clothes away. i couldn't help but smile and lay beside them while petting the little dog's head.

luke turned his attention from his phone to me when he felt me lay down. i had my head propped up on my hand and i smiled.

"i'm finally done." i hummed and luke smiled back.

"finally," he said with an eye roll. "maybe if you didn't have so much shit, you could've been done days ago." he joked.

"maybe if you stopped distracting me and whining about being bored all the time then i would've finished days ago." i retorted with the same amount of sass and he pouted.

"well unpacking is boring and i think cuddling is much more fun," he looked down at the dog in his arms. his voice changed, suddenly getting bigger as he talked to the dog. "isn't it petunia? cuddling is so much fun."

i laughed as the little dog began to wag her tail and sit up with her paws on his chest.

"you guys are so cute together, when if the wedding?" luke sent me a playful glare at my joke.

"you think my love life is so sad, that i will end up marrying my dog?!" luke could be quite dramatic but, i rolled my eyes at him again with a laugh.

"i wouldn't be suprised."

at this luke pouted playfully. "you're just jealous of our relationship and that she gets all of my cuddles." he still used the high pitched voice.

i shook my head with a smile before standing up. "what can i say? guilty." i teased back but he only pouted.

"don't leave, come cuddle us. you need a break from all the packing." he moved over a bit so there was room for me on the other side of him where petunia wasn't. i smiled gently at the hint of concern in his voice.

"i'm okay lu." i chuckled. "don't go all mom on me."

at this he glared. "lay your ass down and cuddle with me."

yet again i laughed but this time i obeyed and laid beside him, using his arm as a pillow. he smiled triumphantly and pulled me a little closer.

"see, now i got my favorite girls and we can relax." he smiled and continued to pet petunia.

we laid in a comfortable silence for awhile before i began to doze off. honestly i hadn't gotten much sleep since the break up and i spend most nights scrolling through my phone and reading so, when i felt luke's hand begin to rub slow circles on my back i couldn't help but drift off.

***

when i woke up later that afternoon, luke's body was wrapped around mine and petunia was nowhere to be seen. i shifted slightly, trying not to wake my sleeping friend as i got up but it didn't work as planned when his grip only tightened.

"no, you're warm, you cant leave." he mumbled into the back of my neck which only caused me to turn and look at him. his eyes were still shut and his curls laid messily over his forehead.

"you can go back to cuddling petunia, she's warm too." i teased quietly.

"she doesn't smell nice though and she's not you."

"don't worry i won't tell her you said that." i chuckle and lay back down on the pillow still facing him. he squinted his eyes open and smiled a little at the comment. we stayed like this for a few more minutes just looking at each other before i lifted my hand to brush a curl out of his eyes.

"daniel was a very lucky guy, i hope you know that." his words caught me off guard. it's like he knew about the hurt that was resurfacing in my brain in that moment.

"i'm trying to remember that." i nodded and lean my forehead on his chest.

"he just didn't have the ability to hold onto someone so great. he didn't realize what he had." i felt a blush rise to my cheeks and i was grateful luke couldn't see me at the moment.

"i'm nothing special luke, not any more than any other girl. if i was, he wouldn't have cheated on me." i closed my eyes with a sigh. although, when i felt him lift my chin i looked at him.

"that's where you're wrong." his finger brushed over my cheek gently. "any guy would be lucky to have you."

before i had time to question luke, petunia jumped up on the bed and came over to lick his cheek.

"come on girl, let's take you outside." he called as he stood from the bed laughing.

i sat up, leaning against the headboard watching him with a million thoughts running through my head. but the main thought was, i was lucky to have luke in my life.

{author's note}
short chapter of fluff.
laila really is blind huh?
how do you guys feel about lula's relationship?
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