Romance in Roses

CHAPTER 25

"No... you're lying. This isn't true this is fake!" I screamed as I threw out the file. Once the first tear falls, the rest of it followed. I couldn't accept that he is hiding something from. The pain... the pain in my heart that I couldn't stop after what I heard, I can feel how my chest was hold tightly that you can barely breathe because of the tightened pain. My tears won't stop flowing as well and I kept on sniffing as my nose began to water. I suddenly remembered what Ken said to me (I was sick when I was a kid and so, I got these scars).

"He was trying to say it all this time..." I whispered. "Why didn't I get that?" I ask myself then I remembered one more word from his mother (But my son is sick, he can't travel). I fell down into my knees hid my face behind my palm. "WHY?!" I screamed in the bottom of my lungs

"Rose... calm down" Stella comforts me by hugging me but I pushed her away and stood up. I didn't look at her and picked the file that I threw away and immediately run towards the parking lot, driving all the way to his apartment. (he had this CHD since he was 6, I presume you know what that is) I remembered how Annica said it to me, but why did I let that slip up.

I'm stupid, it's even hard for me to drive as my tears blocked, and my vision is blurry. As my tears fall off, I saw a huge truck across, luckily, I step on the break before I got hit. I breath heavily and spank the wheel of my car hard. "SH*T!" I shouted and I started the car right after.

I reached into his apartment and I rushed to head upstairs, I reach into his porch and just suddenly barge into his apartment. His family were looking at me in a full wonder "Rose?" Annica asks, I glance at her with a an angry and crying face. "Where is Ken?" I ask in a really rough voice.

"He's in the room but-" I made her unfinish her sentence as I barge into Kenji's room and saw him and his mother helping him out. He is lying on the bed with a medicine right next to him.

"Rose?" He called me in surprise. I slammed the file into the ground and cry once again.

"ARE YOU STUPID?!" I shouted as I got terribly angry, his mother silently left and shut the door.

"Where did you get that?" He asks me in fear

"Why did you lie to me? Why are hiding secrets from me?" my voice became softer and ask him since I wanted answers. He looks away and tears began falling from his eyes.

"I just can't... " He whispers

"Can't what? Accept yourself for being sick in your while life? Ken, I am a doctor! I can help you with that-"

"SO WHAT?! I'LL BE TREATED LIKE AN ILL PERSON AND CAN'T HAVE A NORMAL LIFE LIKE YOU?!" he cuts off my sentence and that made me shut my mouth

"ROSE! I WANT TO TRAVEL, I WANT TO TRY EXTREME RIDES, I WANT TO SPEND MY LIFE BEING NORMAL!" He avers

"When you didn't know that I'm sick, I FELT NORMAL!" He added

"But Ken... your heart is not normal" I answer him in a sob

"Exactly, so please let me feel what being normal was like. It's true that I couldn't accept myself for being like this... it's because I look fine, but I really don't" He sobs while just sitting on his bed. "And if you will know, you will probably say that we are incompatible" That made me look at him, and his crying harder than me. "You can travel, you can hang-out and drink beer all day while I hyperventilate and die"

"Don't say that..." I walk towards him and sit right next to him. I hold his chest and feel his heartbeat and looked at him "It's weak" We both said and that surprised me. He looked at me sadly and said "Close your eyes and listen"

I did exactly what he said, and I know it is getting weaker than before, but I'm glad that it's still beating. I opened my eyes and looked at him straight while tears fall off. "A beat that has nothing to hide from me" I tried smiling at him, I grab his right hand and placed it on my chest, "A beat that would do anything just to make you stay" I stated.

He pulled out his hand and replace it with my other hand, "A beat that deserves someone else and not me". I slapped him but not that hard to make him realize that he's wrong

"I don't need someone else to love me cause I have you" I hoarse at him as he made himself bad

"How can you say that?" He asks me in a rude tone

"My heart told me so. And I'm not leaving in this place unless you promise me..." I said

"Promise you what?"

"Promise me to stay right here beside me" I hold both of his hands and begged, but he shake his head sideways for an answer my tears fall once more as he I didn't like his answer "At least the time that I am ready?" I ask him with a sob, then he blinked and tilted his head with a smile on his face.

"I promise" that made me look down and move forward to him and kiss him as I was afraid to lose him. He is the only guy that last long by my side, not like the other guys I loved before. Tears that falls and I couldn't stop, the pain in my heart after knowing the truth that he's been keeping me all the time, the heart that I'm touching right now that I don't wanted to stop, his heart.