Our Incomplete Story

february 18th, monday

february 18th, monday

dear diary

let me start by telling you how exhausting my first day was. I'm super tired and then i came into my dorm and finished some homework but you know what lets start from the beginning.

i was again at my dads grave and super nervous, i showed him my new white coat and stethoscope to show him how much we've gotten through. i told my dad how nervous i was and was proceeding to tell him where i worked when i was interrupted again by the one and only vincent , its like everytime I'm at the graveyard trying to talk to my dad, he's just there. its starting to get on my nerves now. and then he starts asking me questions like how I'm doing and stuff and then he glances at my white coat and asked if i was working anywhere and then i told him how I'm starting my internship and how I'm super nervous. and then he started talking to me about the things to do and not do on your first day at work.i still didn't exactly realize who he was and why he was telling me all those things but i was too nervous to say anything. he seemed so sweet, we were sitting on the bench next to eahcother and he kept talking Mr through it all and then he hit me with the question that most guys do " so could i get your number" and i lowkey wasn't looking for anything so to avoid his question , i said the impossible

" sure ill give it to you if i get to scrub in on a heart surgery" i told . " but you're an intern hows that going to work" he asked , and i said " well exactly , you see knew that very well, looks like if destiny wants us to meet again, it will happen otherwise maybe its not meant to be" and i leave not knowing that i left my journal on the bench. and now i wished i had known who he was before i said all that.

all the interns were introduced to all the residents except for one because he was preparing for the heart surgery. the girl who was introducing us to all the staff of the hospital wouldn't stop talking about how hot this single resident was and how the entire hospital was trying to woo him but i wasn't here for some hot shot doctor , i was here to accomplish something and nothing was going to come in my way, that's the way i thought but clearly when has god every listen to me ? never.

as the girl was starting to give our scrubs, a nurse came out. saying something in the girls ear and she left, but the girl seemed thrilled to announce that apparently the resident had needed some help and wanted an intern to assist him so he will be looking at work today so he could tell which one of us out of 5 will be chose. this news was enough to make us all competitive. all the interns started talking about how Damon will be getting it since his mother is the owner of the hospital which gives him extra privileges but he was truly an amazing student but no one really saw that so me and Rico decided to become friends with him. it was about 8pm when the tour girl said that the doctor had requested an intern and that intern was ME! what i was actually shocked, like how did that even happen... just how. anyways i got too happy and read my notes quickly, Rico and Damon gave me tips and then i went in.

going in surgery is like crazy, the smell of it is insane. everyone is so intense and serious, there are no games there, just focus and attention. i couldn't even imagine i have made it this far. the main doctor starts talking about what we will be doing and his voice sounded so similar but i didn't pay attention, i just couldn't handle the fact that i was scrubbing in on a heart surgery. it was about 2 hours long and the whole time the doctor kept talking and explaining how things were done but I'm pretty sure everyone could tell how i couldn't stop smiling at theh fact that i was in there. but here's the shocking thing, everyone started leaving after the surgery was complete and so i assumed i must too but then the doctor asks me to close the wound. i was nervous since i haven't done anything like that alone but he said hell show me each way so i agreed. i picked up the scalpel and copied each action but it got weird when he kept staring at me, those eyes its like I've seen them somewhere before but i just cant remember. he leaves the OR and i put the remaining things back in place and walk out and my two crazy friends jump up and down in excitement for me. they asked me a billion questions and then the tour girl tells me that the heart surgeon in there asked me to visit him in his cabin and Rico winks at me and i tell him to shut up and follow her.

when we walk in , the chair is turned around , i walk in and she closes the door behind her leaving just me and the doctor in the room. he turns around and stands up and i have never been that shocked in my entire life, this entire time i knew that i knew that person under the mask, it was vincent . he lied to me . he didn't even say anything when i told him i was going to be the intern in this hospital, literally this morning we talked about this and omg i was thinking i got into the surgery based on luck or my hard work but this was all to just get my number and this is making me hate him even more now. so i confront him about it. he walks up to me, super close now but I'm in no mood for games and make direct eye contact with him, until he pulls out my journal. at first i don't take it back and then he promises that he didn't read it and then i take it back and as he starts saying something i walk out of the room.

when i get home and open the journal , i see everything is still there and then i flip to the last page and i see a little note it says " you said if you get in surgery i could get your number but here's mine *** **** **** i would like to get to know you more" wow he really thought after doing all that was going to just text him , never. starting today I'm going to maintain even more distance than before.

anyways I'm going to sleep, i miss my dad but i have to get through his for him...