The Roads To Paris

8

After over thinking what Jesse said for hours, I slept with a few seconds to spare before my alarm went off.
I know Jesse just wanted me to know that I could get over any of my problems but I can't be bigger than my mom's death. A huge part of my life was taken away from me when I was just 9 and Jesse thinks I can just shake it off and move on??? Life is a lot more complex than a Taylor Swift song. I still don't understand what he meant by that even now during broad daylight but I don't bother over thinking it. Knowing Jesse, he probably meant it nicely but just didn't know how to be completely nice.
I put asides my thoughts and get ready for school. I shower, put on the first thing I find in my closet andgrab my keys and phone.
No matter how late I slept last night, I woke up feeling some kind of refreshed ( emotionally?) after the talk with Jesse. I don't want to admit it, but he had a point. Actually he had a lot of points but I'm sticking with ' a point' for now.
Heaven chooses not to bring the matter up for now which I am grateful for because thinking about Cole and his matter in general is stressing my brain out.
We get to school and meet up with the geng, Heaven still remaining silent the whole time.
" There's my baby." Ivy says turning to me with outstretched arms.
I fall into her hug and bury my head in her sweater.
" I hope you guys aren't mad I didn't tell you about Cole sooner. I just felt you guys would, you know, judge me or something. I dunno." I say suddenly becoming meek and humble
" Are you kidding? Don't worry, that's even less offensive not trusting us, but you should be jailed, you wore a basketball jersey to our soccer game. Now that was calling for allata hatred and anger." Benny says hugging I and Ivy in one
" Benny! I'm not breathing properly, get off." I say from under the stack of bodies catching my breath when I'm released from the double embrace
" Look Paris, you have to realize that we are here for you too. It kind of hurts that you didn't think we were close enough to deserve to know about Cole. You know we love you and we're always going to be supportive of you right?" London says
I can't believe I believed Cole over such great friends. He seemed so trustworthy but I should've kept. I feel like a fool now but I'm glad that these guys aren't mad at me or anything.
" I just hope Cole doesn't bring shit up this morning." Damien says leaning on a random person's locker
" Doesn't bring what shit up?" Cole says appearing from nowhere
Everybody turns to look at Cole surprised( and mostly angry)
" Oh never mind. I know what you're all talking about, you don't need to tell me."
He walks up to me and tries to stare me down but I'm not having any of that today
" And how may I help you?" I ask clearly pissed off
" You know, I admire you level of confidence. It's a lot higher than your IQ if that's any consolation. I mean," he stops to laugh wickedly
" who in the world is that stupid to believe that I'd want anything to do with Holden's friends? Oh, right, you are." he says laughing again
By this time, a sufficient amount of attention has been drawn to us and I know I can't let him make a fool out of me this time around
" I should've known you wouldn't amount to anything other than a waste of time and energy, nothing good ever comes from a person you picked standing by the trash." I reply looking him straight in the eye
" Says the girl who practically forced herself on me. That's practically rape." Cole says
" Rape is when it's without consent and your balls would beg to differ. I'm probably a miracle in your life. First time you got hard without any medical help." I say earning a few shocked gasps from the mini crowd and a look that said ' dayuuuuummmm this bitch is fire' from my friends.
" Touché. You seem to be managing quite well on your own. But I'm wondering why you are on your own. Don't you have'friends'? Why couldn't they stand up for you at the party? And where are they now?" Cole says smirking
" We would help her but she's doing a good job of roasting you on her own. And besides we wouldn't want to interfere with the show." Benny replies for me, sending a wink my way
" Since we're all saying how we feel z how bout this." Cole says
" I never really bumped into you. I did see you bump into someone before rudely running away without apologizing though. I didn't put much thought into it until I saw you hanging at Holden's table. This was obviously a God sent opportunity. None of his friends would've let me mess with them and you seemed like an easy target. So I've been playing you right from the start, and for someone who seems to have a smart mouth or who thinks she's so smart, how couldn't you have known that all that shit wasn't real?"
Looking at Cole now, in the light of day, I realize he's always had this evil gleam to his eyes that I never really paid attention to. And I realize I don't mind that much that Cole played me. In fact, this whole Cole topic bores me. But I am upset that he made me doubt where my true loyalty should stand. I look over at my friends, people who will probably have my back no matter what and I look at Cole and I realize, he isn't worth the fight.
"Shut your mouth you ass and stay the fuck away from my sister." Heaven says glaring at Cole
" It's ok Heaven." Heaven looks at me like I've grown an extra head and waits for me to explain myself
" I realize that I don't really care and this nigga isn't even worth the fight. Maybe I was bored and I stuck it out with Cole but I could tell something was off with you Cole so don't go thinking I'm some naïve girl who flirts around with asswipes. I hope for your sake and the rest of the world that you don't make a career out of your acting. You were looking at the camera so much I thought you were actually checking to see if your baby bump was showing. At this point I'm not even sure if you're three months pregnant or your visit to the gym has been long overdue." I say smiling evily at Cole.
" If you'll excuse me I have class."
Im proud of my response to Cole and I'm sure my friends are too. That should shut him up, but it seems Cole isn't quite done yet.
" Before you leave there's one more thing. Holden hasn't fulfilled his promise to me. You know, the one where you ' won't be able to control what happens next'. I don't mind, you don't have to control anything." Cole says baiting Jesse.
I haven't spoken to or looked at Jesse since this morning and since this fight began and now that I'm looking at him, I can see a lot of suppressed anger.
He stands in front of me blocking my view from Cole with his huge ass body
" You just better watch your back Cooper." Jesse says threatening
" Aww C'mon," Cole says fake pouting
" I don't want to have to watch my back, that seems like a lot of work. Why don't you just hit me with your best shot?" Cole says trying to get him to fight him.
Jesse looks at his friends and then at me and shakes his head and walks away.
" Pussy." Cole says taunting him
" What did you say?" Jesse asks turning back to face Cole
" I called you a pussy what're you gonna do about..."
Before Cole can finish, Jesse's fists connect with his stomach and he is caught off guard and falls to the ground from the force.
Cole stands up again and looks more than ready for a fight. Jesse swings at him again but he misses. I stand in between them just in case Jesse is planning on swinging again.
" Jesse stop it. Don't hit him, that's what he wants. He wanted to get a rise out of you with the shit he pulled on me and since that didn't work he's going to do anything to get you to fight him. Just walk away, be the bigger person." I look into Jesse's eyes hoping to penetrate his soul with my words.
I'm happy when he lowers his fists and walks away still angry but at least he's not fighting with Cole.
" Well isn't that cute. So you and Holden are like a couple now?" he says directing his comment at me
" Please." I say rolling my eyes
" Can't your brain process anything that isn't a boy/girl relationship? I just didn't want him to waste his fight on you. You aren't worth it."
I would've thought you two were like dating. It just seems like your desperation for a guy would drive you to be in a relationship with Holden. Although, you seemed all too happy to ' date' me despite your friends so I guessed you were just really one of the cheap hos looking to sink your teeth in just about any guy that crosses your path." Cole says looking mock disgusted
I really don't like being called derogatory words like ' slut', or 'ho', but that's not what makes me angry. In fact, what makes me angry is the fact that he's actually right that I'm desperate for a guy. I'm not desperate for a guy persay I just want to feel loved. I want someone that can actually care about me. The kissing and making out are a plus.
I'm upset that in the midst of all those insulting things he said about me, he actually had a point.
" But I'm really pissed that I didn't get to see what's under those clothes though while I was playing you. Cause damn you a fine piece of woman . You'd definitely look good under my sheets."
All I did was kiss him!! And not a proper one at that so how dare he insinuate that I'm the type to be sleeping around??!!
Before I can process this last one, my body makes the decision for me and before I know it, there's a red imprint on Cole's left cheek where I just slapped him.