A State Of Euphoria (J.M)

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     The next day I waited outside of Logan's apartment ready to apologize to him for messing around with Jess and to tell him I couldn't do this with him anymore especially since I knew now that I wasn't over Jess he knew I was coming so when the door swung opened he held out his arms to hold me and I let him I hugged him tightly and watched as he pulled me inside and shut the door behind us
"what's the wrong Ace you look stressed," he asks as he leads me into his living room

I sighed and place my head in my hands this could make or break our friendship I was risking it all for Jess "I wanna break up I tried Logan I tried to feel that way about you but I just couldn't I'm sorry" tears began to stream down my face I quickly wipe them as he lifts my chin to face him "Lena I feel the exact same way" he mutters and I take in a deep breath thank god we'd seen eye to eye I smile and he pulled me into a hug "I'm so glad I didn't wanna hurt you and I didn't wanna lose you-" he cuts me off

"Well you aren't gonna lose me but I need to be honest with you" he stood up scratching his neck nervously before taking a deep breath
"I have feelings for Rory I don't know when They started or why I feel them but I do and I don't want you to be mad but we kissed last night and-" I cut him off with a laugh and he looked at me nervously "I kissed Jess!" I state happily his eyes widened with excitement we high five each other and jump up with a laugh
"Aye, we both got some!" We cheered laughing

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Logan had just dropped me off and went on his way back to Yale when Rory was exiting her house I wave at her and she waved at me then I decided I was tired of not speaking to her "Rory I'm sorry!" I yelled as she turned to go into her house she turned around and run towards me and we engulfed each other in a hug there were tears and we pulled away "I'm sorry too I should've never-" I cut her off while tears "I shouldn't have kept it going this song Rory I missed you" I exclaim she nods along

we pull away finally "so now that we've made up I've got to tell you something" she begins but I cut her off "oh I know about you and Logan" I answer and she shakes her head
"No it's another thing" she stays silent before signing and taking my hand "so the fight yesterday was because Jess tried to have sex with me and I was hesitant so he got mad and left" she states and my eyes widened he did not almost fuck me and my best friend in the same day "oh hell no!" I walked toward Luke's angrily with Rory following behind me worried

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The door swung open and Jess smirked at me not noticing that I was pissed "Hey Lena" he reaches for my waist but I back away from him he looks at me confused but before he can speak I pick up a glass of water and dump it on him

he flinched at the liquid before looking at me with a glare "What the fuck Selena!" He starts but I cut him off with a slap now everyone's looking at us "don't what the fuck Selena I consider this shit over and if I even see you look at Rory again I'll skin you and use you as a purse!" I threatened them I grabbed my best friend and walked out of the diner

It was later in the day and I was still angry they guys came over along with Rory and we'd watched a movie then they'd headed back to Yale and Rory went to go hang out with Paris I had another objective on my mind I was currently walking down deans street in a very sexy outfit I knew exactly how to seek revenge Jess wanted to try to sleep with Rory then me then I'll sleep with Dean I knocked on his door and lucky me because his parents weren't home

"Selena what are you-" I cut him off by placing my lips on his he kissed back I mean why would he not everyone knew I was hot even I knew it and this was a once and a lifetime opportunity for dean let's just say he accepted my offer 6 times in the span of hours

When I walked back to my house that night I felt accomplished this wasn't my first time was with Tristan back when he was a decent person or at least when I thought that he was I walked into my house and walked into my room for some reason my legs started shaking

I didn't notice I was breathing heavily until my body hit the ground I didn't get this is wasn't angry maybe it was because I knew I'd fucked up "Shit Lena!" Camille says as he picks me up and turns to my mom telling her to call 911 "it's gonna be okay"

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I woke up in a hospital bed with Logan Pacing back and forth while Collin and Finn slept on the chairs they were sitting on "what I miss" I joked my voice really weak Logan looked over and hugged me tightly "Shit Ace you scared us!" He scolds as he hugged me and I smiled at him as he cupped my face and kissed my forehead

"Hey idiots I'm awake" I yelled and they got up and immediately pushed Logan aside and pulled me into a group hug u laughed just as my moms came into the room my dad following behind them shit this was gonna hurt