A State Of Euphoria (J.M)

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Logan

          When your ex who claimed to love you doesn't show up when you almost died right away you notice the person for what they really are Lena should've snapped me out of this years ago but she thought Rory was good for me we were both wrong it was a few weeks later and Rory hadn't dared to visit because Ace was guarding me like a mother who had almost lost their child which I applauded I didn't wanna see Rory any time soon "you Ready to go home idiot" Lena asks I nod today was the day that I was getting discharged and Lena was going to begin staying with me at my apartment till I was fully recovered I appreciated Lena she was being so caring and for once she was being responsible from something other than a car or Rory's feelings Collin and Finn helped me out of the bed and into the wheel chair I could walk but they wanted me to take it easy so for now I needed the chair "where'd Lena go" I ask as the pushed me down the hospital halls "she's pulling the car around" Finn explains and I nod as we reach the front entrance and their she is leant up against the car arms crossed smiling

"Welcome home loser!" Lena cheered pushing me into the apartment and suddenly people pop up and I realized they had thrown me a surprise party when I specifically said not to
"Welcome back Blondie" Paris greeted and I noticed Lena walk up to her friend Scotty who greeted her with open arms "nice to see you too Paris" I snap back she smiled at this before turning to her boyfriend I look around Rory's not here I mean I don't know why I expected her to be Lena would've dragged her "so who's the idea was it," I asked Collin and Finn they smiled while pointing at Lena who was currently changing the music so people could actually dance I signal for her to come over and she doesn't "so how'd the party!" She asks happily

Jess

Rory showed up at the gallery the other night upset and crying that Lena had almost killed her in a hospital room and as soon as she mentioned Lena I knew she had a reason to want to kick Rory's ass so I told her to go I fucked up big time and I knew it she was counting on me and I was lonely and missing her and Rory made it seem like Logan was an asshole who didn't deserve her how did I fall into her trap I quickly realized after our run-in with Selena how much I had messed up now here I was in the gallery some girl was attempting to flirt with me key word attempting I rang her up and she left sad that I didn't show interest but how could I my head was still stuck on a fiery Latina who stole my heart two years ago

~Flashback~

"Wanna get married" Lena jokes and I laugh at this she was currently laying her head on my lap as I read a book to her we were In Town square and she was graduating soon we both were we still hadn't decided on collages
I just told her I'd go wherever she'd go "stop messing with me Selena Perez," I say she giggles at this before sitting up and turning my head so I'm facing her "I'm being serious Jess what if we just tie the knot after graduation" she suggests and my eyes widened I never expected to be married let alone meet a girl I'd want to marry but here Selena was suggesting we get married "what caused this thought," I ask her crossing my arms she sighs looking into my eyes "me Paris and Rory got into Yale" as she said those words I knew exactly why she wanted to get married it wasn't a marriage it was a way of keeping us tied together until she graduated "Selena you're rushing into things we can't just get married it'll be more of an arrangement than a marriage" I explain and she immediately loses the smile off of her face and I know I pissed her off "it's an arrangement to want to get married to the boy I love!" She spat and I nod she immediately gets up from the bench "you're just saying that because you don't see a future with me and if you don't see a future with me why don't we just break it off for good!" I couldn't understand where this was coming from but now I was suddenly thinking about her words did I want this to last or was it all to perfect for too long "maybe we just weren't built to last" I mutter and regret the words as soon as I say them I see her heartbreak as I did this was it the groundbreaking moment for out relationships I just hoped she wouldn't do it "maybe we weren't if that's how you feel then were done!" She yelled and now everyone was definitely looking at our argument I know she didn't wanna end it but we were both kiddings ourselves she and I were going in totally different directions she needed to focus on her dreams and I needed to let her experience collage "then I guess we're done" I tell her and I see her turn to walk away but she just stands their "Jess if I walk away right now I'm going to Yale and you'll lose me forever" she basically threatened when I didn't respond she walked away and I knew That I was monumentally fucked without her

~flashback over~

I fucked it up not Selena but the book was getting more and more popular and I was getting more and more offers about Loving Lena I just wondered how she'd feel about it