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{Part~10} what is this feeling?

Kuroko's POV~

when I had already left that place and left them all in the middle of heavy rain. I could do nothing but leave and run so fast I didn't want to see the faces of them all, even one more look I didn't pay attention to them. even though I knew in myself that I had gone too far with the hurtful words I had said to them. I ignored the painful expressions on their faces and left as if nothing had happened.

my feet that walked normally after I ran for a few minutes, my eyes fell on our apartment not far from me. as if I don't want to go home, I already have a lot of negative thoughts in my head. I don't know what Sakuya will do if once he finds out that my so-called friends are hurt because of me.

I also know that when I go home to our apartment at this time, Sakuya will immediately ask me what the problem is. well, even my face doesn't always show emotion, and only once. Sakuya is different. he is the type of guy who is very funny and always socializes with fellow students. he was always cheerful and never ran out of energy even when he ran more around the world.

but when he knows that even someone close to him has a problem. he always reads it and predicts it. so I'm afraid he'll find out what happened. I will admit that sometimes my older brother is also scary when he knows what I am doing is wrong. but, what can I do?

"What am I thinking?" I grumbled as I grabbed my wet hair.

'I must not repent of what I have done'

I shouldn't have repented, I just did the right thing. I stayed away from them so that no more trouble would happen. I have driven them away and told them all hurtful words. they're just like Haruka's group, they're all fake. and I don't like fake people. they hurt my brother. and I will never allow that to happen again.

I will not allow them to deceive me again, ever again.

"t-this is bul- ARGHHHH!!! why can't I say that word?!" 

I just stood on the road for a few minutes indifferent to the heavy rain that fell on me. I just sighed heavily. remembering what happened earlier at school. I saw at that time Momoi-san's eyes were like a crystal. her tears that can be seen in her pink eyes as they stare at me that someone is begging inside them. I felt before, she was gonna say something to me but she was just scared because I might not pay attention to what she was saying.

at the same time, she was the only one I paid attention to more than the other members of Kiseki no Sedai, I didn't look at the other expressions of the others because I also knew that they were very angry with me. well, who wouldn't be mad at me?

I'm just a loner who should just be alone and not have to socialize with others, and who wants to be friends with people like me? it's better for me to be alone, after all, I'm a heartless person who doesn't care about others.

"ah, Menduksei. my heart aches"

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Author~chan's POV~

when kuroko thought of going home to their apartment, she slowly went to the entrance of their door and opened it with no appetite. she went inside not caring if the uniform and her whole body were wet. she threw her bag to the side and took off her shoes and she neatly put it with the shoes aside.

"Tadaima..." kuroko's voice which was too lazy echoed in their short hallway enough for Sakuya to hear her voice. less than a few minutes. Sakuya's feet that thumbed at their floor grew stronger.

"Kuro~chan!" Sakuya shouted the name of his youngest sister, the towel in his hand was immediately thrown at kuroko which is why kuroko's whole face and half of his body were covered.