Vanished Love

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TW!: SELF HARM!

"Sshh, You're safe now.." He said..

Hindi ko alam kung matatakot pa ako or magpapasalamat, I'm still shaking and panting heavily.. I'm so thankful na dumating siya but, how did he know that I was in danger?

"I'm sorry.." I said..

"Don't say sorry, ako dapat mag-sosorry sayo dahil hindi ko nahuli yung lalaking 'yon.. And also I can't see his face.." He said while looking at me.. "But.."

"But w-what?" I questioned confused..

He shook his head, ayaw niya bang sabihin?.. "N-nothing, I'll take you home.."

I tried to stand up but my legs are weak, medyo nahihilo na din ako am I going to die? 'wag naman..

Inalalayan ako ni Chase, helping me to stand up, nakatayo naman ako.. Kinuha ko yung bag ko at yung heels ko saka ako naglakad, but I fell again dahil sa hilo..

"Can you still walk?" He asked me looking down, I shrugged.. Hindi na ako nagulat nang buhatin niya ako, I already knew he would do this but ito yung first time na binuhat niya ako nang gising ako..

Pinaupo niya ako sa likod.. "Are you fine there?" He asked me.. I nodded then he closed the door..

Pumasok na siya sa driver's seat, he started the engine and start to drive.. "Where's your car?" He asked..

"Uhm.. N-nawalan ng gas.." Is he angry? Pero parang hindi naman, but yun' yung dating sa akin eh, he nodded..

"What are you doing there?" He asked again..

"How did you find me?" I asked back, he shook his head..

"Ayah called me.. One hour ka na daw wala sa bahay niyo, papasok pa lang ako sa bahay ko kaya naka uniform pa ako.." Ngayon ko lang na-realize, he is good looking in his uniform... "I tracked your phone that's why I found you.. Buti na kang naka-open location mo.." He said.. "Now, can you answer my question? What are you doing there?"

"Uhm.." Nag-iisip pa ako ng palusot ko.. "D-diba nag overtime tayo? Pero may p-pinagawa pa kasi sa akin si M-miss Dionisia.." I lied.. "K-kaya medyo natagalan.."

He shook his head.. Did he noticed that I was lying? "How did you get there? It was like one kilometer away from our school.." He sounded mad but still trying to stay calm..

"K-kasi.." Nag-iisip nanaman ako ng ipapalusot ko.. "I-i was walking, nasa labas na ako ng school but I feel like s-someones's following me, kaya tumakbo ako.. I-i don't know where to go kaya I go somewhere.. N-nung lumingon ako no one was there but then someone covered my mouth in the back, and..." I covered my face because I start to cry again remembered the things happened to me a while ago..

"I-i'm sorry.." He said..

I cry silently, I don't want to disturb him while driving.. "You can let it out.. Just cry anytime you want.." He said calmly..

Kaya mas lalo akong naiyak.. Kase eh! Kapag sinasabihan ako na umiyak, iiyak ako pero kapag sinabihan naman ako na huwag umiyak, iiyak talaga ako!

"Hey.. Jorielei.. Wake up.."

Chase is gently shaking my shoulders to wake me up, nakatulog pala ako.. Sinuot ko yung heels ko at kinuha yung bag ko..

"Ako na jan'.." He said saka kinuha yung bag ko, pagkababa ko he closed the door..

He pushed the door bell..

"Sandale!" Ayah shouted from inside.. "Ano ba 'yan! Sinong mag dodoorbell ng gabi---" She was shocked seeing me like this.. "Ate.." I'm starting to tear up again..

Pumasok ako ng deretso sa bahay namin at pumasok ako sa banyo, I locked the door.. I cried silently again, I covered my mouth and look myself at the mirror..

I saw a hickey in the left side of my neck.. "Ang dumi-dumi mo.." I whispered at myself..

"Ate!" Ayah knocked at the door, and tried to open it, but I just ignore it..

"Ang dumi-dumi mo.." I whisper a little bit loud..

"Jorielei! Open the door!" Chase said while still knocking..

"Eonnie! Please!." She shouted, kahit hindi ko nakikita alam kong naiiyak na din siya..

"Ang dumi-dumi mo!" Dumampot ako ng bagay, hindi ko alam kung ano yung binato ko sa salamin dahilan para mabasag ito..

"Ate!"

"Open the door!"

The knocks getting louder and louder.. I still ignore it.. Napatingin ako sa isang piraso na nabasag galing sa salamin at dahan-dahang pinulot 'yon

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"I'm sorry.." I whispered.. I cut my wrist slowly, pinigilan kong sumigaw pero hindi ko kaya.. Kaya napasigaw talaga ako..

"Ate! Ano ba ginagawa mo! Susi susi!"

"I don't know!"

Hindi ko alam kung matatawa ako o ano.. I'm done cutting the first one the blood is already dripping, I want more..

"Please stop what your doing right now!.. Alliyah is searching for the key.." He shouted..

Pinigilan ko na yung sarili kong 'wag nang ituloy, baka kung ano pa ang gawin ko.. I throw the glass piece somewhere.. Tuluyan na akong nanghina..

"Ate! Jusko!" Ayah looked at me worriedly, nakapasok na sila.. Chase was just staring at me shocked..

I smiled at them bitterly at tuluyan na akong bumagsak at nawalan ng malay.. Is this my last day?

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