Me, My Sensory, and My Synesthesia

Sad, But Beautiful

So, the song The Other Side by Colton Dixon is currently playing on my Spotify playlist and, as sad as it is, I figured I'd share the colors I see.

When I first found this song, I was trying to look up the lyrics to a song my mom sings in our church's choir by the same name. I clicked on one of the videos, just to see if maybe it was right. I could tell by the first three notes that it wasn't, but for some reason, I still decided to let it play. It wasn't an official video by any means. It was black and white graphics that "danced" around, almost in a mandala of sorts.

By the time the chorus started, I was in tears:

You run on ahead

And I will catch up

'Cause I'm gonna see you

When tomorrow comes

It was so beautiful as well as sad. I saw the red of the running. It flashed into my vision just as suddenly as the graphics changed.

I bet you feel you're finally home

Running down those streets of gold

The gold of those streets glinted and complimented the red, a unique occurrence. I was in love with the sad beauty this song contains. With the sadness of loved ones passing and with the knowledge that goodbye isn't always goodbye.

Part of why this song speaks to me so much is because my family is the black sheep of our extended family. We're really the only Christians in our whole family, which can be hard, especially when my grandpa died and then, a few years later, my aunt died. We know my grandpa was Methodist, but our church believes that you have to believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for your sins and the resurrected himself three days later. We don't know if my grandpa believed that. And my aunt was just about the opposite of our family. She didn't believe in God and even got into wicca at one point, but she did say that she would think about God and such when she was dying. She had cancer, so she knew she was dying. It was just a matter of when. No one knows what she decided. She died without telling anyone. So now, I can only hope with all my heart, soul, and being that I'll see them again in heaven one day. The alternative is unthinkable.

Sorry if I annoyed anyone with the talk about my faith. I'm trying to keep it mind that there are others out there who believe differently from me and I'm trying to respect that and keep my mentions of my Christianity at a minimum to avoid making others uncomfortable or anything.

Enjoy the next 86,400 seconds!