Me, My Sensory, and My Synesthesia

Time

I've been struggling with this lately and I felt I should put it out for others to see and maybe relate to.

Time has no meaning to me anymore. Two days ago, on Thursday, I legitimately went the whole day thinking it was Tuesday. Today I woke up and kept having to remind myself that it is not Friday, it's Saturday. A few days ago, my sister came to me to return a t-shirt she'd borrowed. I thought only two days had passed since she'd borrowed it; she said it was five. And she came to me around 3:30. Next time I look at the clock after mostly just sitting around thinking, it's now 8:30. Guess who completely skipped dinner that night? (It was Sunday and we always get our own dinner on Sundays.)

I can be sitting and doing nothing but thinking or gazing at our ceilings (am I the only one who loves looking at popcorn ceilings?) and think that only five minutes has passed or that I've been there for hours and then I look at the clock and usually the complete opposite is true.

I've always been bad at estimating stuff, whether it be time, length, height, distance, anything. I don't know if it's normal to be this bad at estimating this stuff, but it certainly doesn't feel like it with how much better everyone else in my family is with it. They can all get time, measurements, and distance stuff pretty good. Me, I used to think that the walls in our dinning room were three feet tall but at the same time knew that people were taller than three feet tall. No one else experiences the feeling of panic when we're in the car and another car comes up close to us, looking like it'll hit us at any minute.

I'm always seeing things as being closer or farther away than it really is, causing me to either swerve unnecessarily or bump into something. I don't understand either inches or centimeters.

Nothing has any meaning to me. Not time, not distance, not length, not height, nothing. I can understand it in a vaguely abstract way in my head, but put it into practice and watch me lose all sense of anything. :)