Me, My Sensory, and My Synesthesia

"Synesthesia"

This is me just going on a gushing rant about how awesome Andrew McMahon's song is.

beelieverapple first introduced me to it in their book My Synesthesia. They had the music video at the head of the chapter and asked for chomesthetes to comment on what colors they saw when they heard it. I purposely didn't look at the video so that my mind wouldn't be influenced by what I saw, thus disrupting the colors I see.

It's a dark song. Pinks, yellow, and a little blue, but all of them almost glossy because they all have white in them and they're all pale. The end turns white for me with little gray dots when it does the "duh-duh-dih-duh" sound, like those dots you see when someone's typing out a text to you. The swishes of pink, yellow, and blue slash up suddenly before slowing down and disappearing. They're vaguely boomerang-shaped. the gray dots at the end only go across my mental vision once before disappearing, coming again at the next sequence of the noise.

There are hints of a more golden yellow and mint green, but you don't see that as prominently.

I'm actually listening to the song on loop right now as I type. And that is some HIGH praise right there. I never listen to a song more than three times in a row. Why? I can't if I want to sleep that night. When my sister was in an Into the Unknown kick, I had to drown it out with music of my own and even then the call still kept me awake half the night before I turned on the dark, royal blue songs of Enya's album Dark Sky Island. So for me to willingly put a song on loop like this, I'm essentially swearing off rest for the night in order to rest in the comforting wings of the song I fell in love with. Add that to my chronic insomnia, and you can imagine how tomorrow will go ;)

And I don't even care. I usually do, which is why I usually only play my absolute favorites three times maximum. But I had it on loop last night and it's on loop now and I don't even care.

I barely even processed the lyrics when I heard it that first time, only two or three days ago. After The first few times I heard it, I looked up the lyrics. I let it play in my head as I read them, a trick I've learned to help me try to learn BTS lyrics. (So far, the only line I'm able to completely sing in sync with is "Hana wa saki chiru ga" from Not Today, the Japanese version.) After I learned I could do that, I did it with some of my favorite songs late at night. Around 10:30, when i just really need to hear it again, I'll pull up the lyrics and read them, hearing the music in my head.

Thank you, Andrew McMahon, for the awesome song. I love it.