The Underbosses Psychiatrist (M/M)

15 - Chapter Fifteen - Zev Martin's Point Of View.

Starring at Alexi on the other side of my office door really wasn't that surprising. We both had gotten pretty scared by Creed's foot yesterday. I could only imagine what Alexi saw since Creed was basically living in his area. Alexi didn't say much other than hello. He came and sat on the couch, he didn't have an appointment scheduled for today. I was really pleased he knew enough to come to see me when he needed to even if he didn't have an appointment.

"How are you after yesterday Zev?"

"Im ok. Even though I'll never be able to remove the image of seeing through his foot from my brain."

"You're lucky that's all you saw, He measured the damn thing and he kept the spike as a fucking trophy. It was on my fucking kitchen counter this morning in a fucking bag."

"Im glad I checked out then."

"I've had a lot of blood on my hands but nothing scared me more than having his blood on my hands."

"You care about him Alexi, that's understandable."

"I mean I don't hate him, But care about him? That seems like a stretch Zev."

"Alexi, you and I both know you care about him. You are just having trouble wrapping your head around that since everything you've ever been met with is violence and that's what you best respond to."

"How dare you out me like that."

"Have to face your truth at some point, Alexi."

Alexi sat on the couch quietly before he said something that made my brain nearly fry in my skull.

"Im pretty sure my uncle is fucking Dr.Kingsley."

"Alexi!"

"What? Im pretty sure its the truth!"

"How do you know this truth?"

"I saw them kiss. Dr. Kingsley knows I was them too."

"How long have you known about this?"

"I saw it a few days after my uncle came back."

"Have you tried talking about this with your uncle or Dr.Kingsley?"

"Absolutely not! Are you nuts? Im not just about to walk up to either of them and confess what I saw, That's their business!"

"Alexi, Does it bother you that Dr.Kingsley might be sleeping with your uncle?"

"No. It's just really weird to me. I've never seen him ever kiss anyone, My uncle I mean. I didn't even think he was capable of those emotions."

"Do you think Creed or yourself are capable of those emotions?"

"Why?"

"Answer the question, It will help me with your thought process."

"Fine. Creed maybe, he's loved before. Me, no. I've never tried to love anything."

I really hated lying to Alexi about why I was asking about if he or Creed were capable of those emotions, but I wanted to know his view. I felt for Creed, That poor guy was in love with Alexi. Here Alexi was claiming he has never tried to love anything. Creed was going to have a hard time bringing Alexi around to see through his eyes.

"Hey, Zev?"

"Yes, Alexi?"

"Your right you know?"

"About what Alexi?"

"Caring about Creed. I do care about him. But that's a weakness I can't afford to have, not now or ever."