Forbidden Love » a.i. (completed)

Chapter Twenty One

Alex

The feeling of his arms wrapped around me felt like security barriers. I felt as if he was the only protection I needed in my life to make me safe. His strong arms were holding me close to his body, making sure I never fell out of his grasp.

After expressing his feelings, mine exploded. I never thought being with him would ever happen, and now that it is, my heart races thinking about being 'his'. I didn't understand how this could've possibly happen since I'm just a normal everyday girl you see walking to streets. But the way Ashton said all the things he likes about me; I couldn't help but feel like the only girl in the world. He made me happy, even though we just became official. I didn't know if this was the right choice, but it sure did feel like it. I wanted to be his, no matter what happens. He is everything I ever wanted in a guy, and now that he's my guy, everything seemed to make sense.

I slowly peeled myself for his large arms and wiggled out of his bed. I should head home since I slept for hours, and it was getting dark. I didn't now whether my mum or dad was home, but I should be there if they show up. Maybe then will they realize they should be together, and that this small fight is nothing. Maybe my mum will realize even after he cheated on her, he was the only on she'll ever love. He told her he's always loved her.

I heard a groan from behind me as I got to my feet. I looked over my shoulder and saw Ashton opening one eye to look at me. He looked like an angel laying there with a pout on his face and a sparkle in his eyes. "Come back," he whined opening his arms wide open for me to crawl in. Even though my mind was telling me to go and cuddle with him, I knew I had to head home. It was getting late, and I remember what happened last time.

A smile crept on my face as I sat on the bed, but didn't fold into his arms, "I have to go. My mum is probably home by now and waiting for me to show up. How about we hang out tomorrow?"

He smiled and turned on his back, still holding eye contact with me, "Well, I get to pick where we go."

I laughed, "Of course," I said leaning over him and giving him a quick kiss, "I'll see you tomorrow. Just text me when we're leaving."

He nodded and got up with me, throwing on a shirt, which I didn't even know he took off. I must've fell asleep a lot faster than I thought. "Are you okay to go home?"

I nodded slightly, not even sure myself. I haven't thought about what to say to either of my parents. My dad snaps at me for everything, while my mum cries herself to sleep every night wondering what she did wrong in the marriage.

He smiled softly and walked over to me. His hand grabbed mine and laced are fingers together. He sighed softly as he rested his other hand on my cheek, "Call me if you need anything. I mean anything. If you want to just say hi, that's perfectly fine. You can call me at five in the morning if you'd like."

I smiled and leaned my face closer to his hand. He comforted me like no other. When I came to talk to Luke I thought he would be able to help me, but then I realized Ashton was the one who made me feel secure. He was the one that could kiss my problems away one by one. The simple touch of his hand was enough to wash my problems down the drain. "Thank you."

He leaned in to kiss my lips and then removed himself completely, "I'll see you tomorrow. I have to hop in the shower real quick and then I'll text you. Be careful," he said kissing me once again and then walking away from me. I smiled to myself and went out of the room and down the stairs where I saw Luke on the couch playing a video game.

"I'm leaving," I said softly, making him look up. "I just wanted to say bye, and that I appreciate you talking to me about this stuff. It's a lot, and I know you probably didn't want to hear it."

He got up quickly and wrapped his arms around me, "Call me if you need to talk or something. I'm usually always here, so don't even hesitate."

I smiled and nodded, "See you later," I grabbed my keys from the counter where I left them and went outside to go home. It was already six at night, so I figured my mum was already home resting. She never liked the clubs, so I bet she didn't even step foot in one. She hated drinking, so I was shocked to see her leave.

Hopefully everything will be fixed in the morning.

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I got inside my rather large house and set my stuff on the kitchen counter. I peeked my head in the living room to see my mom sitting on the couch with a cup of tea wrapped inside her hands. She slowly took a few sips then leaned back in the couch, letting silent tears fall down her face. I sighed and went in there to help her. "Mum, are you okay?"

She looked up quickly then back down, "No, Alex."

I sat down next to her and waited for her to continue to tell me something. I figured she would fall to pieces and tell me everything, but sometimes she never spoke a word. "What happened?"

"My marriage is over. My teenage daughter is going through college, and her parents are leaving each other. Your birthday is in three months, and then you'll no longer be a teenager. What happens then? You'll leave this house and leave me all alone. I don't know what to do without someone with me."

I sighed and pulled her into my arms for a hug. "Mum, I'm not leaving anytime soon." I rubbed her back as she sobbed into my shoulder.

She wiped her eyes and looked at me as she pulled away, "I know what I'm going to do," she started, "When you finish college, I'm going to be moving out to London to live with your grandmother."

My eyes widened. I know they were going to leave each other, but I never expected my mother to want to move in with her mom in England. I grew up here in Australia with my mum and dad, and now she wants to move? I never even thought she talked to my grandmother for years since they just grew apart. My mum grew up in London, along with my dad, so it was confusing to know she wants to go there. "Wait, what?"

She sighed and grabbed onto my hands, "You don't have to move with me. I'm going to wait until you finish college to even think about moving. It's awhile away, so don't worry. You can always stay with your father too. It's not a choice you have to make right now."

I closed my eyes and thought about everything. I was raised here, and I didn't want to move. I also didn't want to leave my mother alone, but I had my own life to worry about. I had Ashton here now. Oh Ashton. How am I going to tell him my mum's going to move when I finish this year of college? It was dreadful thinking about leaving everybody I know. Sara is my life-long friend, and it would crush us if I moved along with my mum. Maybe I just should stay here with my father. But what if he decides he wants to live with another woman? I was stuck in a situation I just couldn't figure out. I pulled away from my mum and ran upstairs to my room. All I wanted was to take a hot shower and forget about this awful decision I would have to make in the future.

This was the hardest decision in my life. I just started a new relationship with Ashton, which I was hoping, would last. What happens if I move and we grow apart? As I thought about this the same pressuring thought came into my mind; maybe him and I were actually forbidden.

Maybe this is a sign that our love is just forbidden love and it should've stayed that way.

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