Forbidden Love » a.i. (completed)

Chapter Thirty One

Alex

"Don't even bother trying to talk to me, I meant what I said earlier," he spat in my face making me coward down in fear. "You're worthless and I can't believe I'm with you! Do you know how much girls want me?" he hand grabbed my jaw and forced me to look at him. His eyes were so dark, it's like they weren't even his. This was not the guy I loved. The guy I loved is still in Australia, "Did you hear me?"

I nodded faintly, "Y-yes."

He smirked, "So, go upstairs and wait for me. Don't ever talk to me again like you did otherwise I'll be far more mean and angry."

I woke up next to an empty side of the bed. The only thing left there was a handwritten note. I knew it wasn't good because last night wasn't what I expected. He was angry with me, and took it out on me. I groaned as I sat up in my bed, sore. I looked down at my body and noticed big purple bruises along my hipbones, on my wrists, and on my forearm. Last night was horrifying. Just to humor myself, I grabbed the note and pried it open.

I don't want to be with you anymore, Alex. Like I have said before, nobody could possibly love you because you're to busy stuck in the past. Get over him and then come talk to me. We clearly weren't meant to be. Hope you have a good life.

I sighed and set the note down beside me. He was right, of course, but I didn't want to admit it. I never told Sarah the whole story because I know she tells Ashton everything we talk about. If I slipped about still loving him, she would blurt it out to everyone I know that I'm still in love with him.

He was my first. He was my first love. He was my first serious boyfriend. He was pretty much my first everything. How could I possibly not still love him?

But the way my current relationship ended was awful. I didn't know if I should be upset, or angry. I only felt guilt. I left the man I love thousands miles away without giving him another word. I didn't text him, email him, or even call him. Nothing. I disappeared out of his life, but now it seems like he hasn't even in mine. My mind suddenly felt heavy, so I laid back down in my empty bed and closed my tear-soaked eyes and fell asleep thinking about how much I royally screwed up.

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I woke up to my phone ringing non-stop, so I grabbed it off of the bed beside me and saw Sarah's number lighting up the whole screen. I sighed and decided to answer it, even though I wasn't in the perfect mood. "Hello?"

"What's wrong? You haven't been answering my calls!" she yelled into the speaker, making me pull it away from my ear so it wasn't so loud but I could still hear her.

"He broke up with me, Sarah. It's officially over with."

She sighed, but I knew she was happy, "I want you to turn on your TV to channel sixteen right now!" she said loudly, again. I was about to ask why but she answered me, "I think this will maybe make you change your mind about your stupid ex-boyfriend now. He's a total jerk and didn't deserve you, but this one guy I know is hopelessly in love with you."

I took the remote in my hand and hung up the phone. I turned on the channel she told me and noticed on the bottom of the screen, the caption read, The band 5SOS reveals secret loves.

My eyes looked up at the lady who was talking to each boy on screen. I noticed the green-haired Michael sitting closest to her, then the very muscular Calum, and then the adorable blond Luke, and next to him was the love of my life. The one and only, Ashton Irwin. His hair was a mess, his eyes were bloodshot, and it seems as if he couldn't even handle himself.

"What about you Ashton? Any secret girls in your life?" the younger lady asked him with a stupid grin on her face. I was on the edge of my seat waiting for his answer.

He sighed, "I-I did love a girl once. She's gone now, happy with her new life. Let's forget about it, do you want to hear our new single?"

"That's what we like to hear!"

The four of them stood up and went to the stage that they had set up to the right of the interview. As everybody took their spots, Luke started talking into the microphone, "So, we all wrote this song, but Ashton was the main mind behind it. This song is near and dear to his heart, and we have the honor to sing it to you all live. Thank you all so very much. We love you."

And that's how I heard the song, Amnesia, for the first time.

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