You Are My Sunshine ↠ Niall Horan

[25] - Niall

N I A L L

You know that moment at the end of the day, where you just lie in bed and think? You think about the most random things that have ever happened to you.

Thinking about the worst, the downers and things that didn't go the way you wanted them to. Or you think about things that have impacted you, sometimes people that have left their mark on you.

In my case; Shannon Phillips.

She is the only thing that runs through my mind and makes me smile like the biggest fool.

I'll never understand how one person that I met only two months ago, constantly racks through my brain.

"Niall." Shannon firmly catches my attention. "Hmm?" I say coming back to reality.

"You going to pass me the food or are you waiting for your next album to leak?" Sighing I drop the bags of food on the coffee table in front of me, we are on opposite sides to each other.

Her curvy physique sits up and has no hesitation into choosing her meal. "Shan, I'm sorry." I blurt out. With a sigh she looks down at her lap and nods, "I know you are." She replies.

"But you don't forgive me do you?"

"I'd rather just... forget about it. Let's talk about something else."

"Like?"

Shannon shrugs and picks up her chicken nugget box, resting my elbow on my knee, I study every single detail on Shannon's face. I take in her natural and perfectly arched eyebrows, how her eyelashes curl upwards when her eyelids cover the most beautiful hazel eyes, I've ever seen; the curve of the bridge of her cute nose that never gives way to lure me into poking the tip every single time.

Her soft cheeks that always bounce when I jab them, which only annoy her, and gosh... Her cheek bones. They're always the first thing I look at when she smiles. My eyes travel down to her congenital pink lips. I absolutely adore how here upper lip is slightly forward, making it look like she's biting her lower lip. Her jaw line resembles Zayn's, but more feminine-like. Oh, and her freckles! How could I possibly forget those?

"You start the conversation." Shannon interrupts my gazing.

"Well, um..." Oh god Niall. "How are you, you know- do you... Uh."

"How about we watch a movie and save you all the babbling?" I nod and watch as Shan decides on a movie, this is ridiculous.

"No." I say, surprising myself with my confidence.

"Hmm?" Shannon tilts her head at me in confusion.

"No, I want to talk to you. Ignoring or forgetting the problem isn't going to solve anything." Folding her arms over her chest I look up at her and stand up.

"Look, what I did today was wrong and I don't know what was running through my mind. What I did at the ice rink was a mistake and I hurt you, when that's the complete opposite of my intentions. I'm sorry, please forgive me?"

After a minute of silence Shannon finally meets my eye, "Me or her?"

"What?" I say confused.

"Who was the mistake, me or Scarlett?"

"Shannon what are you trying to get at?"

"Answer the question Niall! Was the mistake taking me to the ice rink with you or fooling around with Scarlett and ignoring me?"

"Would I be here if the mistake was being with you? Would I be asking for forgiveness if I didn't want you?" I raise my voice, how naïve could she be?

"Well you seem to be enjoying the attention from me and you sure as hell loved the attention from Scarlett! So you tell me!"

"Of course I didn't want to spend time with Scarlett, I took you out so we could spend time together Sha- "

"Then why didn't we spend time together?" She interrupts.

"Because I made a mistake!"

"But why?" She whispers, keeping the tension in the room but lowering both our voices. Her whimpering voice makes me gulp but her tears don't escape.

"I just... I don't know."

But I do.

Scarlett gives me the attention I want and I know what she's aiming for. She wants me... But I don't want her.

Whereas Shannon gives me attention but I don't know if she wants me in a friendly way or more... I prefer the latter.

I can't tell her, otherwise she'll find out about my crush and I fear rejection from people more than a child fears a thunderstorm.

"Niall, that's just not good enough."

"Shan, please, it won't happen again. She gone and-"

"What if she comes back? Will you leave me again? Or what if someone better comes? Are you going to choose her too?" She bombards me with questions and I ponder on my motives.

This is stupid. Why would she think that?

"Shannon, she wasn't better than you, okay? That wasn't why I was with her. I'm not going to leave you behind." Moving towards her I touch her shoulder to reassure her but Shannon shakes her head at me and moves back.

"You will eventually."

"Shan, I won't. I promise."

"Don't make promises you can't keep, Niall... just stop an-"

"NO! You stop! I'm not leaving! No matter how much you say I will, I'll always be there. Just because of one small incident don't automatically assume I'm going to leave. We're both lonely here in Dublin and we both need each other."

"This isn't just one small incident! You don't know how many times I've had someone leave me! You think you know but you just don't and that's final!"

"Then tell me! You trust me don't you?" Silencing our shouts Shannon nods and I nod back, confused with her sudden outburst.

Maybe I don't know as much as I thought. I certainly know a lot but maybe not everything.

Maybe not enough.

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I place my hands around Shannon's torso and engulf her in my arms, tightly. Christ, this moment is perfect. Me being her anchor while she holds onto me. Me being the only one to give her the shoulder to cry on. It's almost surreal how she's grasping my collar, pulling me as much as possible while I stroke her hair, whispering sweet nothings that I've always dreamt of telling her.

God, she smells so good. Her hair is so soft.

Resting her fragile physique between my legs I slowly rub up and down her back. Whispering the truth in her ears.

"Shhh, it's okay baby. I'll never leave you."

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[ UNEDITED ]

AUTHORS NOTE:

SHANNON told Niall woohoo... you guys will learn too so don't worry. Peace out x

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