Lena's POV
You ever just wish the earth would open up and swallow you alive?
I don't know about you but I do.
Anyhow
Anger boiled deep in my system, as hot as lava. It churned within, hungry for destruction, and I know it's too much for me to handle. The pressure of this raging sea of anger would force me to say things I do not mean, or to express thoughts I've suppressed for weeks, for months.
I know I have to get out this sore throbbing gut-wrenching affliction before I erupt in my furious state. I know that this feeling will pass, but while it hasn't, I'm well aware I could really hurt myself. But who cares right? So I escape. I run. Run from everything and everyone
Especially Supergirl/Kara, Alex, CatCo, Brainy, Nia, DEO and just about everything these days
Mostly I've been in my lab working on my projects
My lab is where I feel safe, secure and just about everything that takes my mind off Kara
At least when I'm working, I think less of her
But I still think about her, fancy her, I imagine having her back in my arms and her in mine
The warm feeling I get when she holds me close
When she walks into a room or when her name is mentioned and my pulse pounds
My palms sweat
A pleasant twist in my gut
The butterflies in my stomach, which is a bit cliche but it's also a really, really accurate description of the reaction of seeing her
Kara seemed soo innocent and warm but again on the other end, Supergirl was something else, someone else, different, distinct and definitely unrecognisable compared to my Kara.
I just want to turn back time to when I didn't know she was Supergirl, to when I didn't know she was lying to me
Back to when we were okay
When we had lunches together when we laughed and giggled about something she said
Back to when we'd take a walk at the park and everything felt soo natural and real
Could it have been real?
Maybe it was real
Or maybe she has the ability to enchant humans to feel for her
I don't know
I don't know what's real and what's not anymore
But I'm certain that I don't want to keep feeling this
Whatever this is
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You know!..
I wonder, what drove her to think it was okay to get close to me
To think it was okay to corn me
To rob me
I mean...
She was the only thing that grounded me
But she took that away
Why?
Why me?
Why her?
Why did it have to be her?
Why us?
It could have been different,
It should have been contrary,
But it wasn't,
It wasn't different,
She wasn't different,
I wasn't different,
I should have known better,
I will know better,
Next time
But, let's hope history doesn't repeat itself
Because I don't want another bullet shot on my back.
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Sometimes, the person you'd take a bullet for ends up being the one behind the gun.
And there is nothing you can do about it, but to keep living no matter the pain
Life goes on right?
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I Trusted Her
Fanfiction"You know, for someone who claims to stand for hope, justice and everything good, you clearly have the wrong definition on what they mean, because you sure as hell did a number on me" Will they ever come back from it? Read to find out
