Because You Make Me Smile - Matthew Espinosa

Chapter 15

Matt's P.O.V

It started off as a fairytale, but ended as a nightmare.
The night I was so happy about, turned into a nightmare. My anniversary with the girl of my dreams, became a night that might make it end. I love her, I've never felt like this. My longest relationship was a measly week, now seven months? I feel like shit, I even called her a bitch for no reason. That's all you do Matt, hurt people. You give them false accusations, like you're doing to Rachel at this exact moment. You make people hate you, like Lina probably does right now too. Everything I touch, breaks. It shatters, and burns.

The bell rang, I grabbed my books and walked out. Not looking at anybody. I just need to lay low and hope nobody found out about the kiss. I only told Sam and Jack so I could ask them what to do.

"Bro, who could you not live without?"

Jacks words ran through my mind the rest of the day. Who could I honestly live without?

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The whole day I didn't speak to anyone besides teachers. It was 7th period, only one more to go.

I just can't. I can't break their hearts. Rachel and I have been best friends since birth, I love her but only as a friend. But Lina, I love her. She's my everything. She made me a better person. My grades, my attitude, my maturity has even gone up. I'm never late to anything.

But the thing is, I can't please everyone, and all I want is for everyone to be happy. I wish I had never kissed Rachel, I wish I wouldn't have brought Lina to that carnival. If I hadn't, right now I wouldn't be so stressed.

I walked down the hallway to 6th period, "Matt!" I heard someone call.

I turned around to find Rachel, "Hey," I said scratching the back of my head.

"Are you ok? You didn't leave your house the whole weekend," She hugged me.

"Yeah, yeah I'm good. Just um I just got a lot on my mind."

"Oh okay, well if you need anything I'm here," She let go of me and walked off.

"Thanks." I nodded.

I can't break her heart. I can't break Lina's either. This is so frustrating.

I caught up to Lina. I need to hear her voice. I'm just gonna be honest with her, honesty is the best policy.

"Hey," She mumbled when she saw me. She looked at the ground, not looking me in the face.

"Can we talk?"

"Aren't we already?"

"Look I'm sorry for what I said, but I-I
need to tel- "

"Matt you kissed Rachel! You asshole! Fuck yo-" I was interripted by Amber yelling, Sam covered her mouth with his hand.

She bit his hand and he moved it away in pain.

"How could you! The minute you see a pretty girl you go and forget about your girlfriend!" She ran to me and slapped me hard in the face. The spot burned, but not as much as my heart. I placed my hand over the spot. It was hot, the blood boiling to it.

I looked at Lina, her face in shock, "You kissed Rachel?" Lina said in a hurt whisper, her eyes becoming watery.

"No, well yes but it didn't mean anything. I swear!" I shook my head.

"It didn't mean anything?" I turned around to see Rachel with a tear down her cheek.

"No. It did but-"

"So it did mean something!" Lina yelled. Furious, don't do anything to Rachel, it's not her fault.

"No, yes, no. I don't know!"

"Fuck you. We're done." Lina spat.

"No, no! Baby I love you. It didn't mean anything," I turned to Rachel. "I'm sorry Rachel it didn't mean anything, I love you Lina." I walked up to her, trying to hug her. She pushed me off, punching me in the face. My head went a little dizzy. I've gotten in plenty of fights, but this was the hardest hit I've ever gotten.

"I understand. " Rachel walked away and Lina walked the other way.

This is exactly what I didn't want to happen.

'But your going to lose one of them..' Jack said the night I told him.

I guess things don't always go the way you planned. Because I never planed to break her heart. I never did. I ran after....

To be continued...