Words I never Tell

Chapter 14

Candice

"Ate Grant, let's go home. I don't want here."

Ang ingay. Ang daming tao. Ang gulo.

All I want is to just lock myself in my room. Sleep all night and be happy reading a book or watching movies that I've already watched countless times.

"Put your glasses away." Tinanggal na nga nito yung eyeglasses ko at inilagay sa bag nito. Ginulo pa nito ng konti yung buhok ko.

Naiilang ako sa suot ko. How can i walk pauwi nito? I am wearing tops and mini skirts na buti umabot pa sa kalahati ng leg ko. I don't even know how I can sit comfortably with these clothes. Tapos heeled shoes pa.

Samantalang ito naman ay nakablack halter backless dress.

"There, you look hot na." Ngumisi pa ito na parang proud na proud ito sa ginagawa nito.

Damn it! Is she selling me off now?

"I'll tell this to Ate Jen. Sasabihin ko binubugaw mo ko." I snort at her nang sabay kaming umupo sa stool sa harap ng counter ng bar.

"What?" Tumawa ito ng malakas. Inilapit nito yung stool na inuupuan nito sakin. "I'm helping you in getting laid. Stupid! You need to play it cool."

I rolled my eyes. I don't need to. I am not even interested in getting guys or gals in this kind of place. It's so pathetic.

Um-order ng drinks namin si Ate Grant. Tapos ay pinaikot nito yung paningin nito na para bang naghahanap ng prospect.

"Tell me your type." Tanong pa nito.

"Obviously, wala dito. Let's go home. My auditory perception sucks. I can't tolerate loud music." Reklamo ko pa.

"Learn to tone down the voices in your head. You grew up in the wilderness, Candice. Ignore the loud music." Sabi nito na idinikit yung bibig sa tenga ko para magkarinigan kami.

Urgh! I know it. I've mastered that technique growing up. I was raised as a weapon against the tribunal. Of course, people seize the opprotunity to teach me everything.

Hindi lang naman ikaw, Ate Grant, yung ipinasok ni Daddy sa training. I went in there too. Kaya nga nila nalaman lahat ng weaknesses ko. That's why he never wanted me to be part of your team because I am not like you. My capability ends with my brain. I can protect myself but my body will soon find ways to attract danger. That's why he pulled me out and just told me to live a life like a royal pawn.

In the world that people doesn't see me as their equal. Where people says women's body are made to pleasure men. Good thing, you messed up too. Kung hindi dahil sayo, baka nandoon pa din ako ngayon. I might be one of the women serving the tribunal because that's the only worth that our father sees me.

A weakling.

So no matter what, I'll do everything to ensure your happiness too.

"There." Kinalabit ako ni Ate Grant at isinenyas ng mata nito yung nakikita nitong prospect. "That one wearing a cocktail dress. She looks hot."

Napailing naman ako. Oo, maganda nga yung itinuturo nya. Maliit lang iyon but her body is too sexy for me. Saka the way she flips her hair na halatang nagpapapansin na kay Ate Grant. Jusko! I don't want to have a threesome with my sister.

"I am not a boob man." Sabi ko na lang.

Natawa naman ito sa sinagot ko.

"Oh, you like flat-chested ones?" Pang-aasar pa nito.

"Piss off!"

Mukhang hindi naman ito apektado sa pagsusungit ko. "C'mon, I'm helping you. You can flirt and expand your choices."