sʜᴏʀᴛ sᴛᴏʀɪᴇs [eng]

i'd bleed out for you.

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25.07.20xx

it's 12:28PM as i am writing this.

i'm sitting on the bathroom floor, crying.

thinking about the thing i did minutes ago.
i shouldn't have done it.

if i had not done it, i wouldn't be so upset and sad right now. i am mad at myself.
why didn't i notice earlier?

it's scary to know something you shouldn't ever have discovered. i feel so sad.

I don't ever want to lose you. i just hope you know that. i don't ever want you to feel bad because of me, oh god, no. i just wish i could do more for you.

it's hard to know what others think.
words they never tell you, things you assumed weren't true but are... and all these emotions they feel.

i'm sorry, i shouldn't have done that.
you can be mad at me, sure.
what i did was bad.

but the thought of you, feeling this way scares me. i want to help you.

please tell me how.

i don't wanna lose you.
not this way.

i don't know how to say this.

i just wish you would've had it better than this.

i am so scared of losing you.
i especially don't want to lose you in that way.

please, stay here. stay with me and do what's best for you.

just know you got me.

i love you.

i am so scared, so please stay.
it makes me cry to know how you really feel.

i'm sitting here, crying silently as possible;
writing this without really seeing anything.

i just need you to know that i love you and i will stay with you forever.

and i mean it.

so please, don't do anything dangerous.
i know it's hard with all the things that go through your head but please... please find a reason to stay.

i am not begging you to stay alive for me, but for yourself. there are so many things you still want to do, right?

so please.... stay. for yourself.

not for anyone else.

and even if you choose to go... let me know.
i'll try to understand and respect your decision... but i just hope it never comes to that...

and even if you go, i would try to be happy... for you. if that's your wish, then i will try.

am i allowed to hope?

i don't want it to get any worse for you.

i wish i could be there all the time.

please don't lie to me...

trust me...

and talk to me... there's nothing that can't be fixed with some honesty...

reach out to me, please. i want to help you.

just... stay. for yourself.

i love you.

and i'm sorry i did this.

just... hate me if you want.

it's 12:44PM now... time to start again.

the song describes everything you have to know...

i'd be so lost if you left me alone...

sorry.

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just when i left the room just now, i saw you were awake.

now i'm just asking myself if you heard me crying... because if you did, i'm sorry.

i thought you were still sleeping.