sat by the ocean

wonder

I constantly forget that we are in a relationship outside of the normal
who am I to label something black or white when it is truly gray?
you see things several ways,
and I feel as though I see some of them different
but does that really matter for the right now?
does the present really need to know that yet?
probably not

I think I'm in love with you
can I say that?
I don't know if I should
because I've been misguided before
I don't ever want you to back off
so I'm going to keep it in
even though I know you'll stay just as fervent as ever

I feel these feelings and I don't know what they mean
emotions are my special field—
so I feel like I really need to know them
would another psychic tell me I'm right?

I tell all these kinds of truths
and I saw you speak one today

I watched as the lie escaped you
and then you said wait
and identified it for what it was
and told the truth
and I think I've never loved you more than I do right in this moment

you're in all I think about
I can't get away from you,
and I don't want to

if you were near enough to touch,
I think I might die right in the spot
then come back to life
with your breath

I don't know what to do
other than go right along with this

because this means being closer to you
and that's all I want right now
I yearn for your skin near mine
and K plead with the universe constantly to let me have it
I know I don't need it, the reality is that it won't kill me to stay apart
but I want it,
I want it so bad
universe, please?

I constantly forget that we are in a relationship outside of the normal
who am I to label something black or white when it is truly gray?
I hope to find more clarity soon
this is enlightening and invigorating.