sat by the ocean

m o n s t e r

I feared becoming a monster,
rejected even the simplest notion
that these soft fingertips bore nails
that these teeth could be used upon skin

I feared becoming a monster,
and I feared it because of you
because you're this certain type of monster that destroys and murders and hates
and that isn't who I am or who I want to be

I feared becoming a monster
and I should've known it would happen
because I become all that I fear at one point or another
and this time it's staying

I feared becoming a monster,
despite the fact that I know dragons lie in my throat
full of searing fire
burn my lungs, fill them with lava, make my body combust under pressure

I'm done hiding
I'm done being your rabbit
don't pull my ears
don't tug on my tail
don't pull me to your chest and hug me
I'm not your scared little bunny

I never was

I am a dragon
I am a beast
I am a monster
upon you I feast

feed me your fear
and do not be shy
watch as I soar
while you lay down and cry