This is the second part of epilogue. Thank you for making this far. #Epilogo2NNS1
Epilogo
Sapphire:
Fetch me later, pls. We'll talk.
Kumunot ang noo ko nang makatanggap ng message mula kay Fire. I usually take her home but not every day. I'm already planning on surprising her with some flowers today as I fetch her, so even without her asking me to go, I'd still probably do.
And we'll talk? Hmm? Tungkol kaya saan?
Dad gave me a day off today. He's training me on handling our business. Noong unang mga araw ay pinipilit ako ni Dad na do'n na maglagi sa office na pinaayos niya para sa akin. I refused. I don't like that.
Hindi ko gusto ang ideyang nasa itaas agad. I wanted to know the basics, the root of it all. I wished for the lowest position first. Kung pwede nga lang na magtrabaho ako bilang janitor ng kumpanya, gagawin ko. But Dad prevented me to do so. Binigay niya na lang ang hiling kong maging normal na empleyado.
Hindi muna siya nakielam doon. Managers were training me and I owe them big time. I wasn't the best trainee. I wasn't the best learner. But that time, I knew that I need to do my very best so that in the future, I can provide for my family with Sapphire. So that I can give her and our future children a comfortable and luxurious life.
Yes, that's already what I thought of. Hindi ko pa man gaanong nakukuha muli ang loob niya, alam ko at sigurado na akong siya ang pakakasalan ko.
Also, I can finally let my Dad retire and enjoy his life with Mom. Their marriage was damaged a lot of times but as time goes by, I can see that they're finally done with the 'everyday fights' and that fact alone somehow made me happy and relieved. I never liked the ambiance of a house full of shouting, doubts, lack of trust, and unfaithfulness.
"Nagsasayang ng oras?" narinig ko kung paanong hindi siya makapaniwala sa mga sinasabi ko, "Gian?" she asked, as if I'm not the guy he's talking to.
Pinilit kong intindihin ang sitwasyon na. The guy she used to love passed away. I, her best friend she once loved, confessed my feelings after she dealt with a turmoil inside her. Pinipilit kong intindihin lahat, Fire. Believe me, baby.
This is kind of selfish, but what about me? What about me pursuing you? Do I stand a chance? Do you still love Dane? Are you really over his death or you're just... distracted?
Are you really opening up your heart for me or... you just opened it up so you can share the pain of losing him so that you won't suffer alone; and not to let me inside it? With the thought of it made something inside me really, really mad.
I stopped in front of my car and faced her. Probably because of my emotion, I fortuitously eyed her with hatred. I saw how she stepped backwards, as if she's scared that I might hurt her. May kung anong nanghina sa loob ko sa pag-iisip na natatakot siya sa akin. Lumapit ako para sana bawiin ang galit na nakita niya sa mga mata ko pero nangibabaw ang takot ko.
Paano kung hindi ko maipaliwanag sa kanya nang maayos lahat ng nararamdaman ko? Lahat ng duda at agam-agam. Paano kung isipin niyang para sa kanya, ganito kaliit ang ikinakagalit ko?
BINABASA MO ANG
Forgotten (NNS #1) (EDITING)
General FictionThis is the first installment of No Name Series. Pain. Grief. Anger. Frustration. Who wouldn't feel those if you found out that someone you love, someone very dear and close to you, forgotten no one but you? Who would never be upset if you found out...
