There is no me without you (a supercorp Fanfiction)

Chapter 31

Kara POV

After the most intense make out session of my life, Lena's phone rings. She sighs answering it while walking out of the room. I sigh I need to calm myself down. I decide to check out Lena's study that she said I could use for work as well. I walk down the hallway slowly. Trying not to think of Lena moaning like she was before. I find the door I was looking though. I walk in and she had already set up a new desk for me. It was so sweet. The space was as big as her office at L-Corp. I look around a bit more and notice a note book on the desk. I'm guessing it's some new sketches of new technology that she is working on. I pick it up to have a look. I start flicking through the pages. It was her journal. I don't think I'm meant to see this. But I couldn't help myself. My heart was breaking. She sounded so down, so broken. I got to when she found out I was super girl. I couldn't believe what I was reading. She had contemplated suicide! My foreground brave Lena wanted to die? There was pages and pages of suicidal thought. What amazed me was her poetry she was writing. It was so sad but I could understand. This one was her latest one. It said.
' one of those days, where you want to knock someone out cold
Where you just want to unfold
Hating everything in your life, every day
Heart full of misery, head full of dismay
Strangling you down to your soul
That little voice in your head constantly shouting at you
Telling you that your useless, worthless and nothing
Everyone asks you what's wrong, you lie or say it's nothing
No one cares
You know it's not fair
But someone always does
But you can't seem to trust
All it does is lead to more pain
A pain you have known your whole life, nothing but pain every day
You want to scream
You pray it's just a bad dream
You want to end it all
But your a coward and fail after all'

I was so engrossed reading it. Reading how I was her light how she never wanted to bring me down. How I had stopped her committing suicide by just being there when she was in a dark place. I'm so proud of her. I was too caught up in what I was reading to notice Lena was coming.
"Kara. I can explain!" She says gaining my attention. She sounded so scared. But I'm not going anywhere!
"Lee, I'm so proud of you. You really are the strongest person I know! If u think like this though can you come and talk to me? I want to be there for you no matter what." I say softly placing the book down and making my way towards her. "I will try. Writing it down makes it easier, like I can manage it." She whispers looking at the ground. I come up to her wrapping my arms around her. "I will be here, always Lee." I whisper into her ear. She hugs me tighter than any human could. It felt nice. "Come watch a movie with me?" She sighs into my neck. It sent shivers down my spine.
"Ok babe, you pick this time" I say gently. I know her favourite movies are scary ones and I don't like them but I want to make her feel better. We go out to the lounge room sitting in the couch while she sets up the movie. She decided on a movie called 'the nun'. She presses play and snuggles into my side. Within the first ten minutes I've got my face pressed into her neck.
"Babe, if you wanted to cuddle you could have just said so" I say quietly noticing her holding me tightly.
"I want more than a cuddle..." she whispered. I grab the remote and pause the movie. She is making it very hard for me not to beg her to please me. Or for me to please her. She inches closer. Gently grazing her lips on mine. Just as I was about to pull her back for a report kiss my phone rang.
"OR RAO NOT NOW!" She growled in frustration. She swore to Rao! Oh my word I want to kiss her so badly. I look at the caller ID and frown. This had better be important.