There is no me without you (a supercorp Fanfiction)

Chapter 11

Chapter 11
Kara POV continued

I tried so hard to reel in my emotions. But the more I think about the look of horror and betrayal on Lena's face the more I hate myself and the more things start getting out of hand. I sit at the kitchen counter. My anger getting the better of me. I hold onto the counter, trying to calm myself down. I hear a crunch. I look at my hands. I've broken the counter. I sigh. It felt good. Maybe I need to break something. To release the anger. I can't talk to Alex because she hates Lena and doesn't want to hear it. I sigh pounding my hand in the counter remnants. It breaks even further. I'm losing control of my strength, of all control I have. My head is in shambles. I couldn't take it anymore. I start punching holes in my walls. Trying to take the frustration, the rage that I have at myself out on the house. Before I can destroy my house I fly outside. I fly hubby above national city. I scream at the top of my lungs. All I can think about is the look Lena gave me once she found out. Hurt and betrayal. I did that. I hurt her. Even after I promised I wouldn't. The pain is building up. The sun has set and I'm still floating there crying and screaming. I finally lose the will to keep trying. The pain is too much. I fly up higher than safe for me. The pain and anger floating through me. I let out a pained scream as my heat vision activated. Not only is my mind breaking but so is my body. Read steaks from my heat vision are streaking across the sky. My body finally starts to give up and I start falling. I could probably stop it if I had the will power. But I deserve this. I deserve to be alone. I deserve to hurt. I screwed everything up. I smash into the ground. I don't care if someone finds me or not. I just pray Rao will take me. That I don't have to keep going. I close my eyes. Every inch of my body hurts. Maybe Rao is going to take me after all.
"Kara, wake up!" A strong voice yells at me. Damn. Rao didn't take me. Maybe I need more of a punishment for hurting Lena. Not trusting myself to speak. I open my eyes. I must be at the DEO. It looks like my med bay. I'm under a sun lamp. Great. Alex is going to kill me. I groan as I sit up. Looking around the room it's different to the DEO. Where am I? I hear a noise and spin my head. Wishing I hadn't. It was Lena. Standing in the door way. I instantly drop my head. Tears building up. I take a deep breath.
"Where am I? Why did you help me? Don't you hate me?" I said whispering the last question. I already knew the answer. I wish Alex had saved me instead. It wouldn't have hurt as much as this does.
"Darling, I am so sorry!" Lena says coming closer. I flinched. I know she is going to hurt me again. I feel her hand gently cup my cheek, slowly bringing my face up so I can see into her perfect emerald green eyes.
"Kara, darling, I am so so sorry." She choked out. She is crying. She drops her hand from my cheek, dropping to her knees. Head down. Crying. I don't know what I was thinking. I reach down and pull her upright. Slowly and ever so carefully I wrap my arms around her.
"Lena, I'm so sorry it's all my fault. I should have told you sooner" I sob. I tried so hard to breathe. I tried to be strong. But I couldn't. Lena must have sensed something was off.
"Kara, it's my fault, not yours." She said nuzzling her face in my neck.
"I should have given you more time to explain. You were the first person to let me in, that gave me a chance. You were my best friend. I should have given you more time." She sobbed. Holding me tighter. Like I was going to disappear. My heart started to beat faster. Finally feeling like I was home again.