Lena POV
I watched as Alex falls apart in the DEO med bay. Maggie was hurt. I have no idea what had happened. Kara was crying. Alex was screaming. I take the kids into the training room.
"Casey, want to see something cool?" I ask him. My plan is to distract them from what ever is going on. I take them out past the training room to the shooting range. I have been meaning to tech these kids how to shoot and now seems like a perfect time. I show them how to stand, how to properly handle a gun and show them how to aim. I walk each of them through it slowly and patiently. Casey and Sam has the biggest smiles I have ever seen from these kids. I hold ruby close as Sam and Casey kept working on their aim. These kids are so amazing. I try my best to keep them distracted from what ever is going on between Alex and Kara. All I know is whatever it is these kids don't need to see it. I know things have been all over the place since Kara told me that we are soul mates. I know I haven't handled things the best. I know I handled everything poorly when Lex told me that Kara was super girl. I know things have been strained since these kids got here from earth 56. All I want is Kara to be happy. But deep down I know it will never be with me. I'm a fucking Luther for fucks sake! Deep down I know she would be a million times happier without me in her life. If I wasn't here then Alex and Kara would still be close. She wouldn't have to choose between me and her family. My mind is going to places I try really hard for it not to go. I know it's my depression. I haven't told Kara how bad it can be because I don't want to damper her light. I'm like a black hole where no light can escape. I don't want to drag her down too. I know I am not perfect, maybe my brother and mother were right. Maybe I should have done the world a favour and killed myself. Maybe with me gone, Kara would be safe. Maybe I could make it up to the world for lex's behaviour, the genocide him and mother committed. Maybe my death would make up for it. I let go of ruby. I take the guns off Sam and Casey. I tell them to go to the training room to soar with some agents while I put the guns away. I watch them leave. I out one gun away and walk out still holding the other one. I walk out past the med bay Kara tried to catch my attention but I was too focused on what was in my hand. The only thing I could think about was that doing this will make the world safe for my Kara. I walk straight out of the deo. I have one chance to make it right. I start to run as fast as I can to put everything in place so Kara will always be looked after. I keep running straight to L-Corp. this should make up for everything. This will keep her safe. This will make the world a better place than I ever could.
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There is no me without you (a supercorp Fanfiction)
FanfictionA supercorp fanfiction. Lena loves Kara. But Kara didn't trust her. Kara misses Lena so much. Lena feels betrayed and hurt. Kara feels like she has lost her world again. Lena eventually forgives Kara but will there love be enough to change Alex's...