Deidara x Reader (Love is a bang)

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You chuckled before removing your mask and tying it to your cloak. This was an interesting thing that you were doing. You froze as you saw Deidara glow. "Deidara?" You gasped, eyes wide as his skin began to flow away. Kankurō and his group caught up to you, frozen as they saw Deidara glowing. "Is he going to blow up?" Kankurō questioned, tense.

"Deidara I think you're dying again" you told him, voice shaking at the thought of losing him again just like that. He eyed Kankurō with an amused expression before he grabbed your mask and put it on you. "You better finish that jutsu off, un. I still want to enjoy my art with you" he said, making you tear up.

"BOOM!" Deidara suddenly yelled, making everybody flinch, including you. "I'm blowing up, yeah!" He joked as his spirit began to float out out of his temporary body. You reached out for him, not wanting him to leave again. Kankurō smirked with amusement. "Don't surprise me like that." He grumbled under his breathe.

You clenched your teeth and frowned. What now? As the group turned to you, you glared bitterly at them. "You might want to head to Madara. I just summoned the Edo Tensei for him" you smirked at them in a friendly manner as you saw them tense up at your words. "Uchiha Madara?" They questioned, but Kankurō glared at you. "Capture her first. She might have information needed." He ordered, making you tense this time. "Capture?" You questioned, suddenly remembering the time Orochimaru kept you in a cell. You hated being restricted or others thinking they could do so.

You snarled with anger and arched your back before pulling out a wolf figure. You made the handsigns and yelled "transformation jutsu!" And a puff of clouds appeared around your now wolf body. You bit down on Deidara's clay before you shot yourself forward and chewed on the clay, spitting it out onto the puppet. You made sure you didn't choke on the clay or swallow it.

A tear escaped your eyes. You were hurting so much and yet you didn't know how much you hurt. You felt so small and abused in this world. You spat out the clay and tiredly looked up before transforming back and falling.

Exhausted. I'm so tired. I feel so sad and empty.

You accepted death at this point and eyed the clay before biting down on it. You nearly yelled in pain as somebody punched your back, making you spit out the clay. Pain filled your back and you stayed limp until you heard a familiar voice. "She isn't a clone, but all I feel is sadness from her. No bad intentions." Which made you slowly look up. "Na..ruto" you whispered, pain in your eyes as more sadness filled you.

Why didn't you stay with them? If you did, you wouldn't have to suffer so much. "Kill me" you suddenly said, clenching your teeth. "W-what?" He gasped, shocked. You narrowed your eyes and began to stagger up, eyes narrowed. "Madara will kill us all." You breathed out. "I'm tired of being used. I want to escape this pain" you choked out, pain overfilling you so much that you felt your chest ache.

"I can't do that, Y/N-Chan. Stop saying stupid things."