will you be my star? (Bokuaka, star tear au)

Chapter 13 (finale)

TRIGGER WARNING. DEATH, SUICIDE, DRUG MISUSE. IF YOU DONT LIKE PLEASE DONT REAAADDDDDD!!!
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School was hard to focus on, Bokuto would constantly feel sick and tired. Fall asleep in class and majority of the time wouldn't pay attention. He moved back into his parents house and explained that he and Akaashi broke up. Hana wasn't much help either.

She didn't necessarily love Bokuto but she loved annoying him. Akaashi couldnt do anything either since they ignored eachother. Practice was hard to cope with they still worked together since well, they are the captains and main setter.
Unfortunately, they didn't get pass their 5th set in nationals. They were against Inarizaki when this took place. Bokuto was just about to spike a set of Akaashi's but he missed because he felt sick, the next thing everyone saw was a bunch of petals covered with blood dripping from Bokuto's mouth onto the orange court. The whole team glanced at Akaashi who started rubbing and itching his arms. Only Bokuto knew why. Neither of them helped either of themselves or eachother. Fukurodani got disqualified out of nationals.

It was almost graduation. Akaashi was walking alone down the very same path the broke up on. He looked up at the sky.

"Hmm, seems like it's about to rain." Before proceeding his walk towards school. Then his phone rang.

"Yes Konoha-san?"

"Akaashi.. Akaashi-san Bokuto.. Bokuto's he-"

"W-whats happening!? Hello..? Konoha!!?"

"Come to Tokyo Hospital Akaashi, it's urgent!!"

The call ended and without hesitation Akaashi ran to the hospital ; he knew that this was his fault. He knew this is because he broke up with Bokuto. He knew that, this was his punishment.

"Fuck! God why do you hate me so much! I love him! I swear I fucking love him!"
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He walked through the door to see Bokuto lying on his hospital bed, a bucket next to him which was filled with his blood, star like tears covered on his face. Akaashi didn't know what to do. He helplessly stared at the man he once's love who was dying right infront of him.

The same high school boy who has his graduation next week, the same high school boy who led him into fukurodani, the same high school boy who he once loved and suffered from, the same one who saved him from his family, the boy that moved in with him. The one who he hasn't even gone as far as kiss him...

"Bokuto, Bokuto san I'm sorry, it's unintentional just please, wake up please!" He begged and cried for mercy, he took hold of his almost lifeless hand and grasped it. He leaned over over the body of his past love and gently kissed him on the lips. Their first kiss.

*beep* *beep* *beep*

and their last.

Time of death: 8:46am.
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Akaashi cramped himself in the little cabin they once lived in, he looked over little things that he hadn't taken notice off before. The height chart that was drawn between the door and window pillar. The wooden cabinet on the side of the bed or the way that the windows didn't fully open.
He ran his fingers through his hair and curled up in a ball.

"If I knew, if I wasn't selfish, if only i didn't..." words that came out his mouth unfinished. "Im so sorry.." the raven haired boy said at last. His eyes puffed and purpled started to cry. Yet these tears weren't normal. The sounds of crystals suffocated Akaashi.

Again..?

He thought he would be scared to see these tears again. His heart started to ache. The started itching his arms and picking at scabs again. He smiled through the pain knowing he deserved it. He got up and walked to a cabinet of pills. Without hesitation he started eating them all.
"I deserve this, I deserve this." He said repeatedly.

Suddenly, his vision started to become blurry and he passed out on the floor.

Time of death 12:32pm