Reincarnation: Never Loving You Again

11: Don't Look at Me Like That

SPECIAL CHAPTER: Chao Feng's POV

I reached out to hold her hands to explain, but she pulled her arms away in disgust.

"Su Yu, don't look at me like that. It wasn't me. It really wasn't. Chang Yin was the one who pushed you. I wanted to pull you behind me, but it was too late." I tried explaining in a hurry so that I can clear the misunderstanding.

"Tsk. Are you sure? Weren't you being lovey dovey with her in your past life?" she said as she crossed her arms in a huff.

"No, no, no. Su Yu. That's my fault. Completely my fault. I — I just didn't want to — to admit that I fell in love with you. I've always seen you as my sister, and I couldn't accept that I was falling in love with my sister." I almost cried out, as I kept trying to pull her in.

"I really do love you. In our past life, after you died. I put Chang Yin in jail. Her whole family was punished and they fell. I couldn't accept that you died so I drank till I passed out. That's how I woke up here. I think God have me a second change to make it up to you!" I said with hope and a twinkle in my eyes.

I saw her eyes soften a bit, but before I could exclaim in happiness, her expression hardened again.

"Su Yu. Su Yu. Don't look at me like that. Don't be so cold towards me. I'm sorry. What can I do to make it up to you?"
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Back to Su Yu's POV

Before I could reply in anger and frustration, Chao Feng got on his knees and I felt a patch of wetness on my dress.

I was shocked, actually beyond shocked. I was speechless. Chao Feng was never like that. He had always been expressionless, and he has never smiled nor cried. I don't think he's even ever smiled at Chang Yin.

A bit of warm crawled up my chest, as I tired surpassing that feeling.

What he says may be true and sincere, but how can he do this to me. If he truly loved me, why didn't he just say so. Was it that bad falling in love with me? And if he truly loved me, why was he hanging out with Chang Yin?

So I gently pushed him away as I asked him, "Why did you get so close to Chang Yin then? You really hurt my feelings. I lived my whole life thinking you hated me, how could you do this to me."

I think a tear droplet fell, as I turned my head away from him, looking at the ground in agitation.

He kept shocking me today once again. As my eyes widened, he slowly crawled to me on his knees as he grabbed onto my legs.

"Su Yu, let me explain. I didn't get close to her. I really didn't. She's the one who keeps hanging onto me. I didn't wanna bother with her cause she's going to latch onto me anyways. I don't like her Su Yu! She can't even compared to a single hair of yours!" the words spewing out of his mouth.

I really didn't think he would be so, so hypocritical. I think I realized just how bad of a person he is. Just because I loved him and he loves me, does not mean that he could treat me like that. No matter how much I hate Chang Yin, doesn't mean he could treat Chang Yin like that either.