Perennial Love

44. String of misunderstandings

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Pia's POV

"You go and join others, I will come in 5. We will continue our talk later..."  Swayam said to me, covering the phone's mic with his palm and I nodded. He walked away and I sighed. Shit! I can't tell him now but I have to talk with him soon before marriage. I walked back to where everyone were standing and chatting.

I smiled recalling his sweet little surprise which left me speechless. That moment, he made me feel as the most important person in his life and that warm feeling spread throughout my heart that I felt my throat clogged with swallowed tears and unexpressed emotions. I was overwhelmed. At that moment, I felt nothing but to hug him and never leave that place in his arms.

And at the same moment, I realised one thing. He had expressed my place in his life very well but there is one thing which is stopping him to know me completely and even I didn't let him know that. There is still something which he doesn't know about but he has the right to, since he is the one I am marrying. I wondered why didn't I tell him this earlier or even realised I have to let him know one day or the other.

He has the right to know about my past. He is aware of my panic attacks and nightmares, but not the reason behind it. I will have to tell him about my accident and about my very existence that I am myself unaware of. I want to tell him that I am not the blood of Mehra's and I don't know who I am myself, except of the identity I have developed in years.

I felt guilt settling down in my stomach which stopped me from meeting his eyes. I couldn't look at him and be okay with the guilty feeling that was continuously poking me. I finally decided that I wanted to talk to him right now and took him away from the crowd but his phone calls had to interrupt our conversation, where I hadn't even started speaking and here I am, standing with everyone, waiting for some alone time with him again. This feeling was making me uncomfortable and I had to let this weight lift up from my chest.

I was brought back out of my thoughts with my mom calling me and I looked at her approaching me.

"Where is Swayam?" She asked.

"He got an important call and said he will come in 5." I replied back smiling.

"Okay." she said and called Sid.

"Sid go and call Swayam for dinner." she ordered him.

"Wait! I will go and call him, you guys carry on attending guests." I jumped in before he could leave and walked back to where he was standing without waiting for a reply. As I neared him, I heard him chuckle at something, his phone still pressed to his ear.

"Sharon? Yes." he spoke smiling to himself and that made the air get caught in my lungs. Is he talking to her or someone else? He chuckled again. Who is the person that is making him laugh so much and he is visibly happy.

"I know it is crazy and complicated. Sharon is the girl I had ever loved, am loving and will love for forever." I heard him speak and I felt someone knocked the air out of my lungs. Unconsciously, I took a step back and my bangles made a clinking sound. I saw his body language going stiff and I immediately hid behind the tree next to me. I could feel him searching around with his eyes and I mentally thanked the darkness for the first time because he couldn't see me in dark.