Unusually circumstance (lumity)

Girls????

Warning this chapter contains homophobia, internal homophobia and use of slurs.

Amity's POV

I run up to my siblings room on to there balcony. It's the only place you can get on to the roof. Sitting out side and staring at the stars use to always relax me, but not tonight. I can't believe this, could I actually have felling a for luz. What if my mother finds out, why can't I be normal?

"Mittens..what's wrong?" Emira asks, climbing on to the roof to join me. "You've been crying for hours."

She's right, I can't seem to stop thinking about luz. But I can't be in love with her, girls like boys, girls..like..boys. "I think I'm sick" I sniffle

"Ohh, mittens" she wraps her arms around me. "Do you want to tell me about it?"

I shake my head, "you won't understand." Or she'll think I'm a freak.

"Not if you don't tell me." She smiles. Her smile seems genuinely, maybe I can trust her.

"I have lovesickness" I cry into her chest. "It's awful, I just want it to go away. Please, please don't tell mother."

"Mitts" she smiles stroking back my hair. "Having crushes is just apart of being a kid. It's normal."

"But I'm not!" I snap pulling away from her. "My lovesickness it it's normal, nothing about me is normal."

"Really?" She smiles. "What's his name?"

I stare at her blankly..should I lie. "It's not a boy" I whisper, looking away from her.

"What?"

"It's..it's not a..boy" I say a little louder.

"Okay" she smiles, "then what's her name?" She asks leaning against me.

"You don't care?" I ask, a bit shocked.

"What that you like girls?"

I slightly nod,

"Not really" she shrugs, slightly giggling. "I kinda had a feeling"

"How?!" I yell "I didn't even know"
"I...you..know..liked girls" I mutter much quieter.

"Sisterly intuition" she shrugs. "Also there's nothing wrong with you liking girls."

"Nothing wrong?!" I ask. "That's not normal, a girl can't love another girl it's unnatural." I protest.

"Mittens, the worlds not that black and white. There's no such thing as normal, and you can't control who you like. To you liking girls is your normal and there's nothing unnatural about that."

"No it's not, I'm just confused. I'll like boys in a few years, like mother wants."

"Mittens you don't have to do everything mom says."

"Uhh, that's just like you!" I snap. "I'm weak, unlike you I have to follow mothers orders. And that means I can't be a dy-"

"Amity!" She screams cutting me off. "Don't talk like that! You said earlier you liked a girl, so what. I love you just the way you are, the only reason you're talking like this is because of our parents and them shoving there options down your throat all these years. I know they put a lot of pressure on you, but you're not weak and you're completely normal."

"I..I." I sniffle starting to cry. "I think I'm love with Luz, but I can't. I can't be,"

"Of course you can, if she makes you happy then be happy." Em smiles Pulling me into her chest to cry.

"But want about mother?"

"It's your life not her's" she whispers. "So tell me about this luz girl?"

"Um" I blush, leaning away pushing back my stay strands of hair. My eyes still feel swollen from crying, with my cheeks still slightly sting. But the thought of luz somehow makes everything a little bit better. "Well she's from the human world, and"

I talk about her for what feels like hours. While emira sits there cheekily smiling.

"Seems like you really like her"

I nod, once again tucking my hair behind my ear.

"You know groms coming up, you could ask her?"

I slowly shake my head, "she'll reject me."

"You won't know until you ask" emira smiles sliding off the roof to the balcony below. "Come on, let's get some ice cream."

"Okay" I nod, joining her on the balcony.

"Mittens?" She places my hand in her shoulder pulling me closer. "if you ever insulted yourself like that again I'll wash your mouth out with soap." She smiles completely serious.

"okay" I gulp, my sister can be terrifying sometimes.