Perfect Now [l.t]

Girl talk ⛅️

*minor Harry Potter spoilers (gof)*
JAY'S POV
A day after we get home, the girls and I decide to have a sleepover at mine and May's. We buy a ton of snacks and make a huge blanket fort in the living room. At the moment, May and Esme are arguing over what films we should watch.

"No I definitely think twilight because of Robert pattinson." Esme says.
"But if we watch Harry Potter you'll see him in goblet of fire anyways." May argues.
"But I don't want to see him die."
"Oh for gods sake Es, we watched twilight last time and you still cried multiple times so you'll be crying whatever we watch."
Es opens her mouth to argue but I jump in to interrupt otherwise we would be here arguing for hours. "May's right Es, we did watch the twilight films last time and we haven't watched Harry Potter in FOREVER. Also if I remember correctly, it's my turn to choose anyways and I choose Harry Potter, sorry Es."
"Wow I see how it is Jay. The treachery." She holds her hand on her heart, and falls back onto the mattress in fake despair. I laugh and roll my eyes at her antics as I stand up and get the films from the DVD shelf.

Before I even put the first DVD in, they're arguing again, this time about who gets to hold the popcorn. It never ends with these two. I laugh to myself, causing looks of concern from both of them. "What?" They ask simultaneously.
"Nothing." I laugh again, slipping in between them and holding the popcorn on my lap, earning complaints from either side of me. "Oh shush, I'm in the middle, I get the popcorn so everyone can reach it."
"Whatever." May rolls her eyes, taking a handful just as the dogs, Ellie and Suzie, plonk themselves by our legs.
"Okay let's just watch the film already." Esme gruffly says, taking the remote and pressing play.
Luckily, as usual Harry Potter seems to calm everyone and within the first five minutes we're all laughing again.

Three films later, we decide to have a brief break before watching goblet of fire as Esme said it will give her time to mentally prepare for the death of Cedric. We go into the kitchen to refill the popcorn and get a few more drinks. Esme leans against the counter, sighing, whilst I get the popcorn. "I miss H so much."
"We know Es, you said that as soon as we got on the plane to come home." May chuckles, although not unsympathetically. "But I get you, I miss Niall and we're not even dating or anything."
"That doesn't matter though because same here. I miss Louis." I say, also grabbing the drinks from the fridge and passing them to May.
"That's true." May pouts, taking the drinks.
"Do you think you and Niall will get together?" Es questions.
Shrugging, she begins walking back into the living room. "I'm not sure. It's early days."
Es and I exchange a look and nod. "They totally will." We both say at the same time, laughing as we follow May back to the living room.

After multiple tears and multiple hours, we're all struggling to stay awake as the credits roll for the last film. Our plan was to sleep in the blanket fort, even if it's basically daytime, but we all decide to go to my room instead, so albeit grudgingly, we make our way slowly up the stairs.

All piled into my bed and staring at the ceiling, we whisper quietly, trying to stay awake just that little bit longer. "I think I love him." Esme whispers. I know without looking she'll have a huge smile on her face and I can hear it in her voice.
"I'm guessing you mean Harry?" May asks, knowing full well it is him.
"Yes! Who else would it be May?" I feel Es shake her head in despair, giggling as she does so. Suddenly serious, she asks. "Do you think he loves me?"
"It's hard to know but that being said, I've seen the way he looks at you Es, it wouldn't surprise me if he did, even if you haven't been together that long." I find her hand and squeeze it reassuringly.
"I hope he does." She sighs dreamily. "He's so perfect in every way."
"That's true." I agree.
"Do you love Louis?" May asks. "Obviously I know you do from a fan point of view. But as more than that?"
I can feel myself blush and despite being in the dark with no one being able to see me, I cover my cheeks. "Umm, I don't know, I think that's a bit far, we've only kissed, I don't even know if he likes me but I definitely really like him, just not sure if I'm like, y'know, in love with him as a partner."
"Hmm sure, if you say so." Esme chuckles.
"I was just going to say the same thing." May adds, laughing.
"What?!" I exclaim, confused.
"You said you can see the way Harry looks at me, well I can see the way both you and Louis look at each other, the way you are with each other. I think you both love each other. Even if neither of you admit it."
"Loves a bit strong of a word though."
"It might be a strong word but Jay, when you find your person, trust me, it feels like you've known them forever and the feelings will be there before you even realise it. Time doesn't matter. Love can be there whenever. Love doesn't wait for anything or anyone."
"Wow Esme, that was deep." May says in awe.
"Yeah it was wasn't it." She laughs in response.
"Jay? What do you think of Esme's speech?" May nudges me.

In truth, I don't know what I think. And even if I did, I wouldn't know how to say it. Sometimes you just have to leave things unanswered and this is one of those times.

"As if she's fallen asleep?" Es nudges me this time, with me stubbornly pretending to sleep. "Do you think she missed my speech?"
"Hmm, I don't know, hopefully not, but I suppose we can find out later."
"True true. Night May. Or Morning, whatever. Sleep well regardless."
"You too Es, you too." They both chuckle before turning away and falling asleep too.

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