Let's Play Pretend - former (pending ) Realize... (Completed and being edited)

The Break up...

Cyrus's POV

Finally, I was allowed to see her... DI pa rin siya pumapasok sa school... I miss her so much, kami pa nga I miss her na, paano na lang if nakipaghiwalay na ako?

Even though I was not allowed to see her, tumatawag siya sa akin every now and then... She sounds ok, pero alam ko deep inside she is hurting just like JN... Kaya nga siguro mas minahal ko siya, ni minsan di niya pinaramdam sa akin na di niya ako mahal, or I was not worth her time... Kaya lang alam ko ang pagmamahal niya sa akin ay hanggang kaibigan lang. Her closest friend... I was lucky to be given a chance to be her boyfriend. 

Naramdaman kong nagvibrate ang phone ko... Isang text from Dahly ang nasa screen ko... I'll be at the rose garden... miss ka na ni Dahly.... dali :-*

These little things always make me happy... favorite tambayan namin dito sa Vileafuerte Manor ang Rose garden...

In a few minutes, nakita ko siya na nakaupo sa may fountain, her feet hanging since hindi umabot sa ground, naka white whole dress at pink hoodie, and as usual nakapaa... Weirdo talaga... 

Napansin niya na dumating na ako... She jumped up and ran to me... "Cy Cy ang tagal mo, narinig kong sigaw niya..." Para talaga siyang bata. You would never thought that this girl is the Owner of Silverthorne Academy... The Vice President ng Vileafuerte- Silverthorne Group of Companies... Bigtime talaga ng GF ko... Mukha lang talagang abnormal minsan.

She hugged me and pulled me papuntang fountain... How I wish we could just stay like this... Naupo na ako katabi niya sa fountain, she showed me a genuine smile and her eyes tell me na miss nga niya talaga ako... Please don't make it hard for me Dahly... baka di ko kayanin na bitiwan ka...

"How is my cute cute Cy Cy?" panimulang tanong niya... We ended up talking about school, mga nangyayari outside the manor... We also talked kung saan kami magbabakasyon this summer... ang sarap sana isipin Dahly na magkasama tayo this summer...

She continued talking, about her training na naman ang pinag-usapan namin... Then she told me gusto niya ako yung kasama niya sa birthday niya... There will be a family gathering sa day mismo pero after the family celebration, she would like to hang-out with me... ang tagal na daw kasi naming hindi nagdedate...

I just let her talk... I love hearing her talk, seeing her smile, mga weird imaginations and reactions niya... Funny expressions... Everything about her... sure ako mamimiss ko...

Naramdaman kong nanikip yung dibdib ko, Shit! it hurts... 

She hugged me and leaned on my chest, gumanti na rin ako ng yakap...

"Cy cy, why do I feel na parang magpapaalam ka?" nagulat ako sa tanong niya...

"What made you say that?" ginantihan ko siya ng tanong...

"Nararamdaman ko lang... parang ang layo mo..." She met my gaze... I see hurt and fear...

"Dahly, I'm be by your side always, itatak mo yan sa abnormal mong utak..." and I pinched her nose after saying that...

Isang mahinang hampas ang iginanti niya sa akin... The she gave me a peck on the lips... Nagulat ako...

"Bayad yan para sa nose pinch..." biro niyang sabi...

I laughed at her... biglang umulan, so tumakbo kami papuntang gazebo... 

"Mukhang tambay muna tayo dito" narinig kong sabi niya...

"Ang ganda tignan ng mundo pag umuulan" di ko alam bakit nasabi ko yun pero yun talaga ang iniisip ko ngayon...

Tinignan niya ako with that expression... Yung expression niya na parang isang innocent girl waiting for a kiss...

"Tama ka, ang ganda nga ng mundo if umuulan... Rain brings sadness to some, yet I can't help but be amazed on how beautiful it is..." she said pensively.

It's time... I pulled her closer, nagulat siya sa ginawa ko... I'm not really the romantic brute, but I feel like doing it right now...

I kissed her like na parang wala ng bukas... Tumugon naman si Dahly, gumanti na rin siya ng yakap. 

With this last kiss, I'll give my all... Di ko alam kung gaano kami katagal na ganun, basta after that pareho na kaming naghahabol ng hininga... She was blushing... one year na kami pero nahihiya pa rin siya when we kiss.

"That was different" nagulat ako ng sinabi niya yun...

Tumawa ako... "Hahay Dahly you really are weird, what's different with that then?"

"It's like everything you got is in there... and it feels sad." matter of fact na sagot niya...

"Dahly you know I love you..." she smiled when I said this, Shit talaga! Don't do that baka di kita mabitiwan....

"However, there are some battles that you need to retreat or give up... battles that were long time lost..."

Naiiyak na ako, ang sakit talaga... but I have to do this... Nagtataka ang mukha ni Dahly, pero may takot sa mga mata niya...

"What do you mean Cy Cy?"  I saw a tear fall from her eye... pinunasan ko yun using my thumb... Qichae last ka na lang ha ang drama nito... BITTER ka talaga BITTER

"Don't cry I'll still be with you oi... kaya lang... as a friend... I can't be you boyfirend anymore."

"Did I do anything wrong Cy Cy?" niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit at umiyak na talaga.

"You were perfect Dahly... ni minsan hindi mo pinaramdam sa akin that I was not loved, that I'm left out... or I'm just a rebound... You loved me perfectly... pero I know your heart belongs to someone else... Alam ko sinubukan mo naman eh! You tried your best to love me more than a friend... nakita at naramdaman ko ang efforts mo... but if it's not meant to be it really won't be..." 

"Ang daan na nakatakda for us was never the lovers lane... instead it's more of friendzone..."

Itinaas ko ang mukha niya... tears were falling freely from her eyes... I saw pain, fear... longing...

"Dahly, don't make it hard for me please... it is for our own good... you can't runaway forever sa nararamdaman mo... and I can't take away what was never mine..."

"Don't worry I'd still be here... kaya lang I have to heal myself too... may panahon na lalayo ako konti... but when you need me I will be there..."

"Di ko rin kaya na iwan ka ng matagal... dakilang friend mo ata ako... Papalitan ko na pwesto ni LJ as BFF mo."

She smiled pero she was still crying... ayaw niya talaga na nahihirapan ako...She tried her best to smile...

" I'm sorry Cy Cy, I'm really sorry..." yun lang ang sinabi niya at isinubsob na niya mukha niya sa dibdib ko... she was crying like a little girl who lost her favorite teddy bear... hinayaan ko lang siya... naiyak na rin ako... it really does hurt... We both cried amidst the rain...

The rain will always remind me of sadness... pero it will always be beautiful in my eyes... parang si Dahly lang

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