Fallen Spider [Irondad Spiderson]

Chapter Ten-Falling Down

"PETER! YOU SHOULD BE RESTING!" Banner yelled out in surprise as Tony helped the kid wobble into the family room. The doctor ran up to Peter and pulled him into a light embrace.
"I'm so sorry..." he said with tears in his eyes. Peter felt terrible seeing the man like this. He threw on a smile the best he could.
"Hey, it might have been an accident but you got the bad dude" he winced as he laughed but held his smile no matter how much it hurt.

*Parker's POV*

Stupid fuckup. You should have just had the person kill you then and there. No one would have worried and Dr. Banner wouldn't be all upset. I got up from the medical bed and stumbled to the door.

"What are you doing up? You should be resting in the med bay, its 2 in the morning" Bucky was walking down the hall as I slipped out the door.
"Um I'm gonna go change..." I mean I wasnt lying but I wanted to do something else.
"Let me help you" he said reaching for me. I backed up and told him I was fine.
"Yeah right if you're nearly falling just walking I can see you trying to put on a pair of pants and hurting yourself worse".

I sighed "okay..." and he helped me to my room and pulled out a pair if sweats and a long sleeve from my closet and some socks. After he helped my get the socks and sweats off he moved up to my sweater. Then I relized my mistake in letting this happen.
"Um I think this hoodie is fine" I stuttered out.
"Man you've been wearing that for four days" he said grabbing the bottom of it and pulling it off. The room was dim so all was okay. Then he grabbed my arm to push it into the sleeve and I wince. They may be old but they were deep they still hurt.
"Oh I'm sorry I'll be more careful" he said as he switched to his human hand instead of his metal one.
"P-peter!" He gasped out. The tough man looked damaged as he looked at my arm. He pulled up the other one and pushed them together examining the scars and recent cuts.
"I-im sorry" I whispered out. I felt like crying but I couldnt. I felt like running but I couldnt. I felt like pushing him away but I couldnt.

He calmly pulled me into a hug and rested my arms at my side. I couldnt feel. The pain. The hurt. The sad. The mad. The happy. Nothing was there. NOTHING! Overwhelmed. I felt overwhelmed at the lack of emotion and i hated it.
"Oh fuck... why Peter? Why would you hurt yourself?"
"I-i dont know.."
"Yes you do and you're going to tell me right now or I will have the others sent in here". His tone. I knew he wasn't lying. It felt like I needed to open up so I did.
"Its just a small thing..."
"No Pete, it's not. Now spill it".
"I-i feel, I feel l-like shit. I'm standing but I feel like I'm falling down. I'm swimming but I feel like I'm drowning. I'm listening but I feel like I'm ignoring. Im a stupid fucking murder and I hate myself. Im ugly. Ugly ugly ugly." I sobbed into his shoulder as he rubbed my back. His normal stoicism gone.
"Oh Peter none of that is true. You're perfect. Look I wont tell anyone under two conditions. You talk to me every day about how you're feeling. No lying. And second you let me check your body. I dont want to see any new scars."

I rubbed my face and sighed. That was my only option or everyone else would see how much more of a burden I really am. "O-okay....."
"Also can I tell you something?"
"U-um sure?" That was random.
He pulled out something from his pocket. A box. It was round and had the design of Caps sheild on it. He opened it and despite the events a few moments ago a goofy smile appeared on my face.
"You're gonna do it?"
"Yes. I just dont know when. I want to do it in front of the others... " inside the box was a ring that was just a band but had the bisexual flag pattern on it in desatuared colors though.
"He's gonna say yes" I say the goofy smile on my face still and one growing g on his.
"I sure hope so" he says frowing.
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Word count:776
Sorry this chapter is a little more short than usual friends. It's a little juicier tho so I hope you enjoyed.

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