Fallen Spider [Irondad Spiderson]

Chapter Thirteen-Un needded Apologies

Peter woke up with a pounding headache.
You idiot they caught you...

He sat up and went to his bathroom. He thought he looked like shit. His hair was a mess and the bags under his eyes were getting close to Tony's when Peter was unconscious from what they now called as the "Villian Incident". He took a few ibuprofen and sighed splashing water over his face.
Everyone saw him in his drunken state last night and he was terrified to face them.

They would laugh. They would be disgusted. They would all know how much of a freak he was.

After a few minutes staring at his reflection, and hating it, Peter left his room and entered the hallway. He rubbed his eyes and went in the direction of the kitchen.
When he entered everyone looked in his direction. "Hey Peter, how ya feeling?" Tony asked.

Peter was overwhelmed with guilt and couldn't answer. He started shaking a little and hyperventilating until it became noticable.
"Hey, hey, kid none of us are mad. You're all good" Clint said with a smile.

Peter felt q little better but he was still shaking and unable to talk.
"I-i-im s-sor-sorry!" He finally managed to cry out. He felt tears sting at his eyes and he covered his face, sinking to the floor. He began to sob and everyone in the room (Natasha, Wanda, Vision[still doesnt get human emotions but he followed everyone else]clint, Tony, sam, thor, loki[thor gave him no choice],bucky, steve, pepper, Rhodey, banner, and even a visiting scott) went up to him and lifted him into a group hug.
"What did I just say dude?! You're all good. I mean wow you should have seen me when I was your age" Clint said with an even bigger smile than before.

"I mean I have asked you if you wanted a drink before kid. Just say you wanna try it next time!" Tony says.
"Wha-" steve was cut off mid sentence.
"Dont start steve" nat laughed.

Woosh

"Hi Mr. Strange!" Peter says excitedly from inside the group, wiping his eyes and throwing on a big smile.
"What's going on here?" Stephen cocked his head.
"Something just came up and we are showing Peter how loved he is" a heavily accented voice said "why dont you join" Wanda continued.

"Of course!" Stephen said making a portal and coming out upside down above peter and hugging him directly instead smooshimg(is that a word?) himself in with the others.
"I dont understand what's happening but I will continue" Vision said.

"Well you're doing great" Wanda said kissing him on the cheek.

Once everybody had released Peter Tony explained to Stephen what happend.
"Ah" was all be said as he went deep in thought.
Did he really just want to try Stark's liquor? Or is there more? Is he really okay? He could just be using the alcohol to cover up something far worse.....

*Peter's POV*

I hear a knock at the door and Bucky walks in.

"Heh man, how you feeling?"
"A lot better after everyone's words" I smile at him. Lies it's all lies. He said I wasn't allowed to lie to him but how is he going to know if I put up a good enough facade. Hurt. I feel hurt. My heart hurts. I upset everyone today and I had to rely on them to comfort me even though they hate me... My face darkens and Bucky notices.

"Peter" he pushes.
"I-I just feel so terrible. I messed up so bad and everyone is upset now. I cried in front of them and just made them hate me more. Then they had to go and comfort me just because I'm weak" I cry out not meaning to. Tears roll down my cheeks and I hide my face in my knees.
Bucky comes and sits next to me on my bed and puts a metal arm on my back.

"Hey hey hey, no one hates you kid" he says.
I stand up wiping the tears from my face.
"I need to go ask Tony something" I say walking out and leaving him in my room.

I take a deep breath when I reach the door to Mr. Stark's work room. Walking in I go up to him.
"H-hey Mr. Stark?"
"Whatsup kid?"
"Can I go visit a friend?"
"Um suuure I guess. Just make sure to hide your face when around people okay. Still being looked for by the government. You know you dont have to ask Pete. Just tell FRIDAY where you'regoing before you do. And dont get caught." he gives an awkward laugh.

Once I get out the doors and I take one of Mr. Starks self driving cars. I head for a location that's not necessarily visiting a friend but at the same time I am.

"H-hey Ned" my voice cracks as I stand next to a tombstone with my best friends name on it.

"I-im so sorry buddy. I should have saved you. I could have put myself in between the two cars. I would be dead , you would be alive and MJ wouldnt be hurt. Win win right?" My chest tightens and more guilt adds to before. If felt like it hurt to breath and I just wanted to cry. Cry and cry till I had no more tears to cry. But I couldnt. I couldnt do anything but stand there.

"I... i guess I might see you soon if I end it..."

"P-peter?" I hear a teary voice behind me.

I spin around as fast I could recognizing the voice "MJ!" Tears threaten to spill more. I run towards them and they do the same to me.

"Holy shit I thought I ended up killing you too!" I cry out.

"W-what do you mean? Who didnt kill anyone?" They ask concerned.
"Ned...." my voice is just above a whisper.

"Oh Peter. That's not your fault. Crashes happen."

"I could have saved you guys" I whisper out.

"How?! Putting yourself in between the cars? Why would you say those things?"

"I-i" I was at a loss of words.

"C'mon loser. Let's talk" they grab my arm and walks me towards Ned's grave and we sit criss cross next to it

Hello lovelies! I hope you enjoyed this. I passed my goal of 1000 words this time so it's a little longer than my previous shorter chapters.